A Dream
I have the weirdest, strangest, dream last night.
It was not a fun dream at all. I had so much anxiety when I woke up.
My brain finally understands it. And I recover well from everything.
Sometimes it´s hard to control your brain though.
But I understand now, and I try my best.
I belive in my dreams though. Many of them, not all of them.
And it´s like listen to your "deep voice inside".
I´m almost 100 % right about all my feelings and dreams all the time.
So, sometimes I can just listen to my dreams, and don´t do mistakes.
But sometimes it´s very hard to listen.
You have to try, and maybe fail, but then you know it til next time and you have learned your lesson!
So, I think I will take my own edvice and listen to it for once.
I know what´s right, and I know what´s wrong....
For me!
I can not take responsible of someone else. I have myself!
Well, time for bed.
Just watched HOT ROD again.... for the 4th time... hahaha.
Love that movie :D
Sweet dreams :)
It was not a fun dream at all. I had so much anxiety when I woke up.
My brain finally understands it. And I recover well from everything.
Sometimes it´s hard to control your brain though.
But I understand now, and I try my best.
I belive in my dreams though. Many of them, not all of them.
And it´s like listen to your "deep voice inside".
I´m almost 100 % right about all my feelings and dreams all the time.
So, sometimes I can just listen to my dreams, and don´t do mistakes.
But sometimes it´s very hard to listen.
You have to try, and maybe fail, but then you know it til next time and you have learned your lesson!
So, I think I will take my own edvice and listen to it for once.
I know what´s right, and I know what´s wrong....
For me!
I can not take responsible of someone else. I have myself!
Well, time for bed.
Just watched HOT ROD again.... for the 4th time... hahaha.
Love that movie :D
Sweet dreams :)
Psychic test....
Well.... I did the "psychic test".. and here is the results.
Me, little Lee. Greater than I thought.
You have premonitory dreams.
If these dreams have really come true,
you probably do have a sixth sense and a rather detailed perception of the future.
As you probably already know, dreams sometimes seem to be based on events that happened in the past.
To tell whether you're receiving a prediction in your dream,
you will need an excellent perception of situations,
a strong capacity to analyze, and enough sensitivity to extrapolate.
Congratulations, this is a genuine talent!
You chose the Red Chrysanthemum to express love.
Congratulations, you made the right choice!
This flower represents passion, and more exactly, it says, "I love you."
That means that you have correctly captured the visual vibrations created by the
Red Chrysanthemum and that you were able to associate it with the correct feeling.
You definitely scored a point, and you might have a certain talent for clairvoyance.
All you need to do now is hurry to a florist to buy a bouquet of Red Chrysanthemums
and offer it to a loved one to celebrate!
You associated the ocean with desire.
Unfortunately, you didn't see what you were supposed to!
Dreaming of an ocean symbolizes life, people around you, and family.
But don’t worry; this wasn’t an easy one.
To learn more about this important symbol and others, check out our Dream Dictionary.
There’s a lot more to learn about dream symbols,
and you will be able to improve your dream interpretation ability!
The occasional feeling that you are traveling without moving physically is a strong sign of being a medium.
Your spirit transports you into unexplored territory.
This phenomenon externalizes your conscience and is called "astral projection."
The soul leaves the body to contact other spiritual entities.
This experience is a reality for you. You are without a doubt a medium but don't know it.
A big advantage to this kind of travel is that it doesn’t harm the environment or spoil any natural resources!
You answered two questions of the precognition tests incorrectly.
This means that you weren’t able to sense two out of the three symbols
that were selected by the psychics of psychiccenter.com.
Despite the interesting choices you made, it looks like your psychic talents are statistically average.
It does not appear that you have specific talents.
If you are convinced that you do, feel free to contact one of our psychics to share your experience!
Me, little Lee. Greater than I thought.
You have premonitory dreams.
If these dreams have really come true,
you probably do have a sixth sense and a rather detailed perception of the future.
As you probably already know, dreams sometimes seem to be based on events that happened in the past.
To tell whether you're receiving a prediction in your dream,
you will need an excellent perception of situations,
a strong capacity to analyze, and enough sensitivity to extrapolate.
Congratulations, this is a genuine talent!
You chose the Red Chrysanthemum to express love.
Congratulations, you made the right choice!
This flower represents passion, and more exactly, it says, "I love you."
That means that you have correctly captured the visual vibrations created by the
Red Chrysanthemum and that you were able to associate it with the correct feeling.
You definitely scored a point, and you might have a certain talent for clairvoyance.
All you need to do now is hurry to a florist to buy a bouquet of Red Chrysanthemums
and offer it to a loved one to celebrate!
You associated the ocean with desire.
Unfortunately, you didn't see what you were supposed to!
Dreaming of an ocean symbolizes life, people around you, and family.
But don’t worry; this wasn’t an easy one.
To learn more about this important symbol and others, check out our Dream Dictionary.
There’s a lot more to learn about dream symbols,
and you will be able to improve your dream interpretation ability!
The occasional feeling that you are traveling without moving physically is a strong sign of being a medium.
Your spirit transports you into unexplored territory.
This phenomenon externalizes your conscience and is called "astral projection."
The soul leaves the body to contact other spiritual entities.
This experience is a reality for you. You are without a doubt a medium but don't know it.
A big advantage to this kind of travel is that it doesn’t harm the environment or spoil any natural resources!
You answered two questions of the precognition tests incorrectly.
This means that you weren’t able to sense two out of the three symbols
that were selected by the psychics of psychiccenter.com.
Despite the interesting choices you made, it looks like your psychic talents are statistically average.
It does not appear that you have specific talents.
If you are convinced that you do, feel free to contact one of our psychics to share your experience!
Dreams / Déjà vu
Last night I had a strange dream.
I can´t really remember it, but I remember pieces of it.
I was talking english (happens more often in my dreams)
A friend I met in Mexico was there with his dog, selling stuff in a store.
I was in all kinds of different stores, looking around.
Me and this guy smoked some hookah from the store.
It was a nice mix off tasty fruity tobacco. I wasn´t in Sweden.
Suddenly I was at a hospital or something.
Surrounded by kids. I had a nice feeling in my body with the kids.
But there was two friends who weren´t really my friends, so I told them to fuck off.
That´s about it.
And when I sat down at the computer this morning, I was chatting with a friend.
I got this strange déjavú feeling in my body. Like I´ve done this before.
Then I remember it, it was from my dream. The same dream.
It took me a while though.
Almost all of my spirituell connection with myself disappeared here.
But last night I could connect with it again.
Felt good.
Well, I haven´t been writing for a while.
Cuz I´ve been out camping in Skåne.
Me and Jocelyn have been around from on city to another. Relaxing and nice.
Got to go.
WIKIPEDIA.....
Déjà vu (pronounced /ˈdeɪʒɑː ˈvuː/ ( listen); French: [deʒa vy] , "already seen";
also called paramnesia, from Greek παρα "para," "near" + μνήμη "mnēmē,"
"memory") or promnesia,
is the experience of feeling sure that one has witnessed or experienced
a new situation previously (an individual feels as though an event has
already happened or has happened in the near past),
although the exact circumstances of the previous encounter are uncertain.
The term was coined by a French psychic researcher, Émile Boirac (1851–1917) in his book "L'Avenir des sciences psychiques" ("The Future of Psychic Sciences"),
which expanded upon an essay he wrote while an undergraduate.
The experience of déjà vu is usually accompanied by a compelling sense of familiarity,
and also a sense of "eeriness," "strangeness," or "weirdness."
The "previous" experience is most frequently attributed to a dream,
although in some cases there is a firm sense that the experience
"genuinely happened" in the past.
The experience of déjà vu seems to be quite common among adults and children alike.
References to the experience of déjà vu are also found in literature of the past,
[1] indicating it is not a new phenomenon.
It has been extremely difficult to evoke the déjà vu experience in laboratory settings,
therefore making it a subject of few empirical studies.
Recently, researchers have found ways to recreate this sensation using hypnosis.[2]
Mystic explanation
Déjà vu is associated with precognition, clairvoyance or extra-sensory perceptions,
and it is frequently cited as evidence for "psychic" abilities in the general population.
Non-scientific explanations attribute the experience to prophecy,
visions (such as received in dreams), or past-life memories.
Some believe that deja vu is a glimpse of a life that could have been,
for example when you make a choice in life it takes you down a certain path,
when you are on that path you have a glimpse of your life, having made a different choice.
Dreams
Some believe déjà vu is the memory of dreams.
Though the majority of dreams are never remembered,
a dreaming person can display activity in the areas of the
brain that process long-term memory.
It has been speculated that dreams read directly into long-term memory,
bypassing short-term memory entirely.
In this case, déjà vu might be a memory of a forgotten dream with elements
in common with the current waking experience.
This may be similar to another phenomenon known as déjà rêvé, or "already dreamed."
However, later studies on mice indicate that long-term memories must be first established as short-term memories. Kevin Heady suggested that a feeling of remembering occurs in a sense that he might realize that what he had dreamed is now a relevant present action that is taking place right here right now. Jamais vu.
Reincarnation
Those believing in reincarnation theorize that déjà vu is caused
by fragments of past-life memories being jarred to the
surface of the mind by familiar surroundings or people.
Others theorize that the phenomenon is caused by astral projection,
or out-of-body experiences (OBEs),
where it is possible that individuals have visited places while
in their astral bodies during sleep.
The sensation may also be interpreted as connected to the fulfillment of a condition
as seen or felt in a premonition.
For further cases of remembering information from past lives, see Ian Stevenson.
I can´t really remember it, but I remember pieces of it.
I was talking english (happens more often in my dreams)
A friend I met in Mexico was there with his dog, selling stuff in a store.
I was in all kinds of different stores, looking around.
Me and this guy smoked some hookah from the store.
It was a nice mix off tasty fruity tobacco. I wasn´t in Sweden.
Suddenly I was at a hospital or something.
Surrounded by kids. I had a nice feeling in my body with the kids.
But there was two friends who weren´t really my friends, so I told them to fuck off.
That´s about it.
And when I sat down at the computer this morning, I was chatting with a friend.
I got this strange déjavú feeling in my body. Like I´ve done this before.
Then I remember it, it was from my dream. The same dream.
It took me a while though.
Almost all of my spirituell connection with myself disappeared here.
But last night I could connect with it again.
Felt good.
Well, I haven´t been writing for a while.
Cuz I´ve been out camping in Skåne.
Me and Jocelyn have been around from on city to another. Relaxing and nice.
Got to go.
WIKIPEDIA.....
Déjà vu (pronounced /ˈdeɪʒɑː ˈvuː/ ( listen); French: [deʒa vy] , "already seen";
also called paramnesia, from Greek παρα "para," "near" + μνήμη "mnēmē,"
"memory") or promnesia,
is the experience of feeling sure that one has witnessed or experienced
a new situation previously (an individual feels as though an event has
already happened or has happened in the near past),
although the exact circumstances of the previous encounter are uncertain.
The term was coined by a French psychic researcher, Émile Boirac (1851–1917) in his book "L'Avenir des sciences psychiques" ("The Future of Psychic Sciences"),
which expanded upon an essay he wrote while an undergraduate.
The experience of déjà vu is usually accompanied by a compelling sense of familiarity,
and also a sense of "eeriness," "strangeness," or "weirdness."
The "previous" experience is most frequently attributed to a dream,
although in some cases there is a firm sense that the experience
"genuinely happened" in the past.
The experience of déjà vu seems to be quite common among adults and children alike.
References to the experience of déjà vu are also found in literature of the past,
[1] indicating it is not a new phenomenon.
It has been extremely difficult to evoke the déjà vu experience in laboratory settings,
therefore making it a subject of few empirical studies.
Recently, researchers have found ways to recreate this sensation using hypnosis.[2]
Mystic explanation
Déjà vu is associated with precognition, clairvoyance or extra-sensory perceptions,
and it is frequently cited as evidence for "psychic" abilities in the general population.
Non-scientific explanations attribute the experience to prophecy,
visions (such as received in dreams), or past-life memories.
Some believe that deja vu is a glimpse of a life that could have been,
for example when you make a choice in life it takes you down a certain path,
when you are on that path you have a glimpse of your life, having made a different choice.
Dreams
Some believe déjà vu is the memory of dreams.
Though the majority of dreams are never remembered,
a dreaming person can display activity in the areas of the
brain that process long-term memory.
It has been speculated that dreams read directly into long-term memory,
bypassing short-term memory entirely.
In this case, déjà vu might be a memory of a forgotten dream with elements
in common with the current waking experience.
This may be similar to another phenomenon known as déjà rêvé, or "already dreamed."
However, later studies on mice indicate that long-term memories must be first established as short-term memories. Kevin Heady suggested that a feeling of remembering occurs in a sense that he might realize that what he had dreamed is now a relevant present action that is taking place right here right now. Jamais vu.
Reincarnation
Those believing in reincarnation theorize that déjà vu is caused
by fragments of past-life memories being jarred to the
surface of the mind by familiar surroundings or people.
Others theorize that the phenomenon is caused by astral projection,
or out-of-body experiences (OBEs),
where it is possible that individuals have visited places while
in their astral bodies during sleep.
The sensation may also be interpreted as connected to the fulfillment of a condition
as seen or felt in a premonition.
For further cases of remembering information from past lives, see Ian Stevenson.
In my head right now
Okey this is what´s going round in my head...in this second.
Motorhome / Trailor down to Germany - France - up to Belgium
and last stop Amsterdam and back home.
Of course with a lot of friends.
If not with a motorhome, maybe I´ll try with a bike alone, or try to get Jocelyn with me.
I was thinking about Interrail to.... Let´s talk to Annica about this when she gets home. =)
Thailand... work...volounteering / helping kids etc.
Guatemala and rest of central america / south america... Work...Volounteering.
Helping kids. Continue traveling with Adeline (and maybe Tim if he is going back)
New York... and Los Angeles, still on my list. HAVE TO SEE IT!
Philipines - Explore with Annica, her family and culture.
Still have to figure something out about the money situation... And I have to think fast.
The only thing that is holding me back here is that I really love the new place I stay at.
I feel so good, living with this guys.
I still don´t really know them so much, but they are such good guys.
I love the place, the appartment, the rent, the rules, the location.
I FUCKING LOVE LIVING ON MÖLLAN.
Möllan is the shit. You can go dressed how you want, nobody cares.
You find everything on Möllan, and it´s so close to everything.
I´m starting to feel like a family.
Just look at our names. Oh. so cute. :)
Fegge (Fredrik), me and Gio (Giovanni)
But I still want to continue living on the edge. I love it.
It´s scary, but it´s the best ever.
So what am I gonna do?
Stay here and don´t feel free.......?
Or just continue traveling and keep getting stronger??
My new backpack :)
Motorhome / Trailor down to Germany - France - up to Belgium
and last stop Amsterdam and back home.
Of course with a lot of friends.
If not with a motorhome, maybe I´ll try with a bike alone, or try to get Jocelyn with me.
I was thinking about Interrail to.... Let´s talk to Annica about this when she gets home. =)
Thailand... work...volounteering / helping kids etc.
Guatemala and rest of central america / south america... Work...Volounteering.
Helping kids. Continue traveling with Adeline (and maybe Tim if he is going back)
New York... and Los Angeles, still on my list. HAVE TO SEE IT!
Philipines - Explore with Annica, her family and culture.
Still have to figure something out about the money situation... And I have to think fast.
The only thing that is holding me back here is that I really love the new place I stay at.
I feel so good, living with this guys.
I still don´t really know them so much, but they are such good guys.
I love the place, the appartment, the rent, the rules, the location.
I FUCKING LOVE LIVING ON MÖLLAN.
Möllan is the shit. You can go dressed how you want, nobody cares.
You find everything on Möllan, and it´s so close to everything.
I´m starting to feel like a family.
Just look at our names. Oh. so cute. :)
Fegge (Fredrik), me and Gio (Giovanni)
But I still want to continue living on the edge. I love it.
It´s scary, but it´s the best ever.
So what am I gonna do?
Stay here and don´t feel free.......?
Or just continue traveling and keep getting stronger??
My new backpack :)
Backpack
In this moment I feel like the duck we were talking about in Cancun.
The duck with the backpack.
Kvack kvack, or meck meck, let´s just say BACK PACK.
(Sorry, it´s a long story for those who doesn´t know what I´m talking about)
I want to be that duck right now, to feel free and take my backpack and leave.
Let´s just hope that I don´t fall over haha.
I know what I want to do with my life now.
The only thing I´ll be needing is money.
I finally found something I want to do, and learn.
To grow even stronger as the person I am today.
But I don´t know if it´s the right thing to do in life right now.
But I don´t know if it´s right if I don´t try.
The more oppertunities I´m having, the better I feel.
And I sure do have a lot. Without money.
I just need a good job, that I like. Or love as a matter a fact.
And I´m pretty sure I´m gonna try it, as fast as I can get some money.
I can´t go here, at home... bored, and not explore the beautiful world we live in.
And now I have another reason to leave to.
The thing I heard from a family member putted a smile on my face.
Let´s see what the LADY has to tell me when I see her.
And after that I´m gonna make a desicion in life.
And it´s a hard desicion, so be prepered. I know I have to.
Peace and love to everyone.
The duck with the backpack.
Kvack kvack, or meck meck, let´s just say BACK PACK.
(Sorry, it´s a long story for those who doesn´t know what I´m talking about)
I want to be that duck right now, to feel free and take my backpack and leave.
Let´s just hope that I don´t fall over haha.
I know what I want to do with my life now.
The only thing I´ll be needing is money.
I finally found something I want to do, and learn.
To grow even stronger as the person I am today.
But I don´t know if it´s the right thing to do in life right now.
But I don´t know if it´s right if I don´t try.
The more oppertunities I´m having, the better I feel.
And I sure do have a lot. Without money.
I just need a good job, that I like. Or love as a matter a fact.
And I´m pretty sure I´m gonna try it, as fast as I can get some money.
I can´t go here, at home... bored, and not explore the beautiful world we live in.
And now I have another reason to leave to.
The thing I heard from a family member putted a smile on my face.
Let´s see what the LADY has to tell me when I see her.
And after that I´m gonna make a desicion in life.
And it´s a hard desicion, so be prepered. I know I have to.
Peace and love to everyone.
Bored at home...
A normal day....
Some days I don´t have ANYTHING to do.
And some days, my schedule is so full I don´t have time to breath.
This is a day I thought was full. But after work and the gym I was like ....
- Hmmmmm.... now what?
I knew it was so many things I needed to do.
But was it important, did I really needed to do it?
Probably not, cuz I don´t remember them. Haha.
So I went home, cleaned my room and a little bit more in the appartment.
Did some food, watched some tv, some more tv....
And allright - time is now 22.30 and Maja and Malin is on their way over here.
I´m so bored. I need something to do.
Sometimes I can´t relax when I want to. I feel like a kid who has ADHD.
I need a new hobby maybe?
Or wait a minute....
I NEED A BOYFRIEND!!
But I really can´t find the man in my dreams.
And who takes my breath away.
And I´m to tired of looking for one.
yeah yeah.... smell you later. XOXO
Look at this sweet sweet beer.
In the middle of the Caribbean, a SOL is perfect.
The picture don´t have anything to do with the text.
Just stole it from Sanna, when we were sailing with Boy-Lee.
(I´m Girl-Lee)
Look´s nice huh?
Some days I don´t have ANYTHING to do.
And some days, my schedule is so full I don´t have time to breath.
This is a day I thought was full. But after work and the gym I was like ....
- Hmmmmm.... now what?
I knew it was so many things I needed to do.
But was it important, did I really needed to do it?
Probably not, cuz I don´t remember them. Haha.
So I went home, cleaned my room and a little bit more in the appartment.
Did some food, watched some tv, some more tv....
And allright - time is now 22.30 and Maja and Malin is on their way over here.
I´m so bored. I need something to do.
Sometimes I can´t relax when I want to. I feel like a kid who has ADHD.
I need a new hobby maybe?
Or wait a minute....
I NEED A BOYFRIEND!!
But I really can´t find the man in my dreams.
And who takes my breath away.
And I´m to tired of looking for one.
yeah yeah.... smell you later. XOXO
Look at this sweet sweet beer.
In the middle of the Caribbean, a SOL is perfect.
The picture don´t have anything to do with the text.
Just stole it from Sanna, when we were sailing with Boy-Lee.
(I´m Girl-Lee)
Look´s nice huh?
Midsummer
Soon it´s midsummer in Sweden.
I have no idea what I´m gonna do.
Maybe stay with my dad or something.
Or my new roomies out in Genarp, on the country.
One thing is sure, I don´t want to be in a big city on midsummer.
That´s a tradition. Drinking snaps, eat cooked potatoes, sill,
And the weather is gonna be GOOD. Do you understand me??
Fucking awesome. OKEY??
Time is going very quickly. Specially when you´re having fun.
It´s allready june, but the weather is not that good yet.
I sure hope it´s coming.
Typical Swedish summer. Rain, sun, rain, sun... COME ON!!!
So, if it´s raining on Midsummer - I´m gonna be pissed!!!! HAHA.
Midsummer dance.
Well, I have a lot of things on my mind the coming days.
Figure many things out. If I only were rich, it would be so much easier.
I´m not gonna work at Maguro anymore either.
So, what I´m saying.... figure something out.
Well, now I can sell some alcohol and make some money hahahaha.
Hangout place at my crib tonight. With my crew. =)
Love. <3
A thought...A gift...
Sometimes I wonder if I have a gift.
Well, I think that all people around the world have a certain gift somehow.
I think that I have a deeper gift. I can´t explain how, cuz I don´t know myself.
Couple of months ago a wise man that I dated back then,
told me that I just have to control my mind.
I couldn´t back then, I was just lonely and sad inside. But I grew stronger everyday.
My mind focused on things I never focosed on before.
Like another part of my brain I just found out I had. (sounds weird)
Yesterday I had this wonderful feeling in my body.
When I came home, I had this déjavús again. Many of them.
And at Johans place to. I am more openminded now compared to before.
It´s like you know, but you can´t put your finger on it.
The same with my dreams. I have to start writing them down again.
People can belive me that I am crazy, but I belive something else.
Maybe I am crazy?
I can have a feeling like I´ve been there before.
Maybe in a dream, maybe in another life, another dimension.
Who knows? I can´t tell you.
I had a dream that one of my friend got hurted really bad.
So I hope that he is allright.
One time when I was at a fortune teller, I wrote everything down.
I found the papers the other day. And this was years ago.
Everything maked sense, but something was missing.
Someone beside me. But I know my time will come soon.
I don´t really have time for it now anyway.
Just miss to cuddle with someone, and who cares about me.
I think that everything happens for a reason.
I have a good karma right now, and it´s just me who can control it.
My life ended up absolutely perfect.
I got a new room in a appartment with wonderful guys, like I always wanted.
I gave away my cat, maybe I didn´t want that. But I think that was the best thing to do.
But I still miss her like a mother fucker.
I got a new job in the restaurant business, like I wanted.
It´s amazing, and I am so lucky.
So, look at everything I´ve done during the last year.
My checklist is almost empty by now.
I went to Mexico and Vegas.
I swam with dolphins,
skydived,
hold a shark,
almost got married just for fun in Vegas,
worked as a bartender,
sailing in the Caribbean
went to a stripclub....
And the list goes on.
But every part I just wrote down. Was a "TO DO" list.
I met the most talented, amazing and friendliest people ever,when I was on my trip in Mexico.
That made ME even stronger. And the best thing I ever done was to stay in Mexico alone.
The whole trip changed then. It was like I´ve been to two trips.
I ordered a backpack yesterday, to have when it´s time for me to escape from Sweden and never come back.
More to come about my thoughts another day....
This picture. It feels like a dream.
Have I been there? It was to good to be true.
I just woke up and .... hmmm... Have I?
..Oh.. I´ve got a cold... Gah...
Well, I think that all people around the world have a certain gift somehow.
I think that I have a deeper gift. I can´t explain how, cuz I don´t know myself.
Couple of months ago a wise man that I dated back then,
told me that I just have to control my mind.
I couldn´t back then, I was just lonely and sad inside. But I grew stronger everyday.
My mind focused on things I never focosed on before.
Like another part of my brain I just found out I had. (sounds weird)
Yesterday I had this wonderful feeling in my body.
When I came home, I had this déjavús again. Many of them.
And at Johans place to. I am more openminded now compared to before.
It´s like you know, but you can´t put your finger on it.
The same with my dreams. I have to start writing them down again.
People can belive me that I am crazy, but I belive something else.
Maybe I am crazy?
I can have a feeling like I´ve been there before.
Maybe in a dream, maybe in another life, another dimension.
Who knows? I can´t tell you.
I had a dream that one of my friend got hurted really bad.
So I hope that he is allright.
One time when I was at a fortune teller, I wrote everything down.
I found the papers the other day. And this was years ago.
Everything maked sense, but something was missing.
Someone beside me. But I know my time will come soon.
I don´t really have time for it now anyway.
Just miss to cuddle with someone, and who cares about me.
I think that everything happens for a reason.
I have a good karma right now, and it´s just me who can control it.
My life ended up absolutely perfect.
I got a new room in a appartment with wonderful guys, like I always wanted.
I gave away my cat, maybe I didn´t want that. But I think that was the best thing to do.
But I still miss her like a mother fucker.
I got a new job in the restaurant business, like I wanted.
It´s amazing, and I am so lucky.
So, look at everything I´ve done during the last year.
My checklist is almost empty by now.
I went to Mexico and Vegas.
I swam with dolphins,
skydived,
hold a shark,
almost got married just for fun in Vegas,
worked as a bartender,
sailing in the Caribbean
went to a stripclub....
And the list goes on.
But every part I just wrote down. Was a "TO DO" list.
I met the most talented, amazing and friendliest people ever,when I was on my trip in Mexico.
That made ME even stronger. And the best thing I ever done was to stay in Mexico alone.
The whole trip changed then. It was like I´ve been to two trips.
I ordered a backpack yesterday, to have when it´s time for me to escape from Sweden and never come back.
More to come about my thoughts another day....
This picture. It feels like a dream.
Have I been there? It was to good to be true.
I just woke up and .... hmmm... Have I?
..Oh.. I´ve got a cold... Gah...
To do or not to do, that is the question....
Why can´t the time stand STILL just a little bit,just a little bit?
So I can try to relax for a while? Noooooooo....
Let´s push the fastplay button when I put my foot outside the door from work.
Gah, I can´t stand this. I just want the day to end, right now!!!
Well, I talked to the owners of the property I live in. And we passed!!! :)
So, we are just waiting for the contract now.
It´s gonna show up on monday.
Was supposed to go to the hospital, but I have a lot to do so I´m gonna do it tomorrow.
Changed my adress (again) today.
Moving on sunday.
I´m packing my stuff righ now.
Gonna go to my appartment and get alot of shit over there to.
Cook some dinner later to.
People in general are idiots. Really idiots. But they don´t really know it though.
Today I feel like I want to HIT someone....
Fuckdickasspussycockmotherfuckersluttywhore
I see red
My hemp...my hemp... my hemp...My lovely little hemp.
Seeds from Hemp (Hampa-frön) is the shit.
Do like this.
Mix cottagecheese (keso), and avokado and a little bit salt.
Put it on your sandwish, and put HEMP SEEDS on the top.
Yum yum yum.
Healthy and good. And drugfree. =)
Hemp makes you smart.... just so you know ;)
Do like this.
Mix cottagecheese (keso), and avokado and a little bit salt.
Put it on your sandwish, and put HEMP SEEDS on the top.
Yum yum yum.
Healthy and good. And drugfree. =)
Hemp makes you smart.... just so you know ;)
Cool-ass bitch!!
First of all, 35 visitors in just a couple of hours.
And just one note from Jane. And thanx Jane for all your love.
And for the rest....SHAME ON YOU!
Bad readers, bad, bad readers...
If you are here, reading what I´m writing, at least leave a note?
Well, thanx everybody for all the support and all the other notes I´ve got.
I had to take away the picture I uploaded yesterday in my blog.
He didn´t want any pictures to be uploaded on him.
To something else.
I signed the contract for the room I´m gonna live in further on today.
Felt good. Now I just have to deal with my own contract.
It´s still alot of shit in my head, spinning around.
I miss Tim and Adeline really much.
Miss having somebody to talk to, like we did.
But like he said - I´m a cool-ass bitch so I can deal with alot of things.
Well, I´m going to Turkey on the june 13.
My brother isn´t directly going anywere,
so the ticket is paid and it´s an ALL INCLUSIVE Hotel.
The best in town to.
So, yes, bye bye Sweden.... Again...
Yes, More vacation. =)
Time for bed.
And just one note from Jane. And thanx Jane for all your love.
And for the rest....SHAME ON YOU!
Bad readers, bad, bad readers...
If you are here, reading what I´m writing, at least leave a note?
Well, thanx everybody for all the support and all the other notes I´ve got.
I had to take away the picture I uploaded yesterday in my blog.
He didn´t want any pictures to be uploaded on him.
To something else.
I signed the contract for the room I´m gonna live in further on today.
Felt good. Now I just have to deal with my own contract.
It´s still alot of shit in my head, spinning around.
I miss Tim and Adeline really much.
Miss having somebody to talk to, like we did.
But like he said - I´m a cool-ass bitch so I can deal with alot of things.
Well, I´m going to Turkey on the june 13.
My brother isn´t directly going anywere,
so the ticket is paid and it´s an ALL INCLUSIVE Hotel.
The best in town to.
So, yes, bye bye Sweden.... Again...
Yes, More vacation. =)
Time for bed.
Toothpaste...
Hola amigos.
Since the day I came home again, I´ve been thinking about it.
I know it´s a weird thought, but I couldn´t let the thought go when I heard it.
It was actually Tim who told me about it.
If you are thinking ecologic, and what´s good for your body you should
throw everything with fluor away, if you haven´t done it allready.
It´s like a poison for your gland in the mouth, and makes everything get stuck.
It´s also called the third eye and it leads to that you have less ability
to feel the general feeling that you are in this dramatic thing called LIFE.
There are no medical studys that proofs that it´s good for our teeths, it´s the quite opposite.
In places like the United States, they mix this poison with their
water and the result is that the people have bad breath and teeths.
The whole thing started in the nazi-germany
because Hitler wanted a more easy population, that always agreed.
I changed to a toothpaste without fluor since the day I got home.
Somehow I feel a different. They feel better and feel more white.
I think that all human beings need to read more information about this.
Check out this video..... plz!
I´m gonna go to the ecologic shop tomorrow called "Astrid och aporna"
( translate : Astrid and the monkeys)
Buy some Aloe Vera or Liqurice toothpaste. But first, work work work.
Time for food. Don´t forget to brush your teeth.
I suck at it. Time for me to pull myself together.
XOXO Lee
Strange dreams... again...
Jag drömmer om dom varje natt som går.
Varje natt ser jag fram emot att drömma mina drömmar igen.
Varje natt kommer jag närmre dom.
Är jag inte i USA, så är jag hemma i Sverige med dom.
Eller så är jag där dom är, i något exotiskt land.
Går inte att förklara mer än såhär, men kontakten verkar så verklig.
Obeskrivlig. Jag vet bara om att mina drömmar än underbara.
Alldeles, alldeles fantastico.
Och att få vara med mina finaste igen, känns underbart.
Känns rent ut sagt helt psycho att skriva det, men så känner jag.
Dom finns med mig vart jag än går.
Hade varit underbart om dom bara kom in vandrandes
som en surprise typ på jobb eller nått.
JAG HADE DÖTT!!!!
Kommer ju aldrig att hända ändå.....
Varje natt ser jag fram emot att drömma mina drömmar igen.
Varje natt kommer jag närmre dom.
Är jag inte i USA, så är jag hemma i Sverige med dom.
Eller så är jag där dom är, i något exotiskt land.
Går inte att förklara mer än såhär, men kontakten verkar så verklig.
Obeskrivlig. Jag vet bara om att mina drömmar än underbara.
Alldeles, alldeles fantastico.
Och att få vara med mina finaste igen, känns underbart.
Känns rent ut sagt helt psycho att skriva det, men så känner jag.
Dom finns med mig vart jag än går.
Hade varit underbart om dom bara kom in vandrandes
som en surprise typ på jobb eller nått.
JAG HADE DÖTT!!!!
Kommer ju aldrig att hända ändå.....
The drugs don´t work
The Verve har fått en ny favorit sång.
Visst har Bittersweet Symphony en stor innbörd för mig med.
Från att gå till att minnas en sak, till en helt annan.
Den får mig stark, och denna svag typ.
The Verve har gjort denna fina sången också ju.
Jag minns det som igår, kan nästan se mig själv där inne på café Mogagua igen.
Folket sitter och äter, jag och A sitter med min dator.
Låten spelar i bakgrunden, jag är ledsen.
När jag hör låten skrattar jag till, och håller med....
Precis som BRAZILIAN GIRLS med PUSSY betyder mycket för mig så gör även denna det.
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All this talk of getting old
It's getting me down my love
Like a cat in a bag, waiting to drown
This time I'm comin' down
And I hope you're thinking of me
As you lay down on your side
Now the drugs don't work
They just make you worse
But I know I'll see your face again
Now the drugs don't work
They just make you worse
But I know I'll see your face again
But I know I'm on a losing streak
'Cause I passed down my old street
And if you wanna show, then just let me know
And I'll sing in your ear again
Now the drugs don't work
They just make you worse
But I know I'll see your face again
'Cause baby, ooh, if heaven calls, I'm coming, too
Just like you said, you leave my life, I'm better off dead
All this talk of getting old
It's getting me down my love
Like a cat in a bag, waiting to drown
This time I'm comin' down
Now the drugs don't work
They just make you worse
But I know I'll see your face again
'Cause baby, ooh, if heaven calls, I'm coming, too
Just like you said, you leave my life, I'm better off dead
But if you wanna show, just let me know
And I'll sing in your ear again
Now the drugs don't work
They just make you worse
But I know I'll see your face again
Yeah, I know I'll see your face again
Yeah, I know I'll see your face again
Yeah, I know I'll see your face again
Yeah, I know I'll see your face again
I'm never going down, I'm never coming down
No more, no more, no more, no more, no more
I'm never coming down, I'm never going down
No more, no more, no more, no more, no more
(Repeat and Fade Out) 
Baaaang, shoot me please!
Jag vet inte, men jag känner mig som sagt starkare nu än förr.
Jag är inte kaxig på något vis, snarare tvärtom än förr.
Nu är jag mjuk och mysig.
Och som sagt väldigt mycket lugnare, för att jag är tryggare med mig själv.
Vissa folk är inte vana vid det och kaxar med mig som förr.
Går inte längre. Mognat på något vis.
Blivit mer vuxen på något sätt antar jag?
Men det är inte detta jag vill komma till så här efter några öl.
(Jävla VALBORG)
Det jag vill komma till är att det bara finns POJKAR här hemma i Sverige.
Här finns inga MÄN i Sverige.
Och dom som är i närheten av att vara män är antingen upptagna eller bögar.
Oerfarna små blyga osäkra puckon som inte har något att komma med.
Och detta är inget jag säger för att verka bitter eller ha något emot snubbar här hemma.
Utan det e mer för att det är så JAG TYCKER.
Dom enda grabbar jag umgås med och andra sidan är mina vänner.
Men det är bara för att jag inte orkar lyssna på andra snubbar ens, som har annat i kikaren.
Verkligen INGEN som jag har träffat sen jag kom hem har något att komma med längre.
Dom som kan lära mig något vettigt i livet, ha långa diskutioner med,
som vill ta initiativ till saker, visa respekt, och visa att man gillar en,
kanske från en annan kultur, det är något som är intressant.
Då snackar vi med andra ord.
Som jag säger alltid. ÄRLIGHET och rakt på sak kommer man längst med.
Det finns absolut inga sådana här hemma.
Flygresor till Mexico just nu är SVIN-BILLIGT! (Haha ser ni skämtet)
4000:- ca. Snacka om att jag är sugen eller!!!!!!????????
Hade bara Mr T. varit hemma i Staterna nu så hade jag kunnat besöka
New York och de andra städerna runtomkring också. Fan också.
Det är en sak på listan som måste strykas snart.
Men vilket underbart år jag har haft hittils.
Sen JULI förra året har jag hunnit göra såååååå mycket så det är helt sjukt.
Och inte ska jag stanna nu inte.... Detta är bara början på mitt äventyr!
Vi har fest hemma... satt där ute en stund sen pallade jag inte mer,
satte mig vid datorn och myser lite istället.
Blir nog bra Lee, bra!
Peace out mother fuckers.
Jag är inte kaxig på något vis, snarare tvärtom än förr.
Nu är jag mjuk och mysig.
Och som sagt väldigt mycket lugnare, för att jag är tryggare med mig själv.
Vissa folk är inte vana vid det och kaxar med mig som förr.
Går inte längre. Mognat på något vis.
Blivit mer vuxen på något sätt antar jag?
Men det är inte detta jag vill komma till så här efter några öl.
(Jävla VALBORG)
Det jag vill komma till är att det bara finns POJKAR här hemma i Sverige.
Här finns inga MÄN i Sverige.
Och dom som är i närheten av att vara män är antingen upptagna eller bögar.
Oerfarna små blyga osäkra puckon som inte har något att komma med.
Och detta är inget jag säger för att verka bitter eller ha något emot snubbar här hemma.
Utan det e mer för att det är så JAG TYCKER.
Dom enda grabbar jag umgås med och andra sidan är mina vänner.
Men det är bara för att jag inte orkar lyssna på andra snubbar ens, som har annat i kikaren.
Verkligen INGEN som jag har träffat sen jag kom hem har något att komma med längre.
Dom som kan lära mig något vettigt i livet, ha långa diskutioner med,
som vill ta initiativ till saker, visa respekt, och visa att man gillar en,
kanske från en annan kultur, det är något som är intressant.
Då snackar vi med andra ord.
Som jag säger alltid. ÄRLIGHET och rakt på sak kommer man längst med.
Det finns absolut inga sådana här hemma.
Flygresor till Mexico just nu är SVIN-BILLIGT! (Haha ser ni skämtet)
4000:- ca. Snacka om att jag är sugen eller!!!!!!????????
Hade bara Mr T. varit hemma i Staterna nu så hade jag kunnat besöka
New York och de andra städerna runtomkring också. Fan också.
Det är en sak på listan som måste strykas snart.
Men vilket underbart år jag har haft hittils.
Sen JULI förra året har jag hunnit göra såååååå mycket så det är helt sjukt.
Och inte ska jag stanna nu inte.... Detta är bara början på mitt äventyr!
Vi har fest hemma... satt där ute en stund sen pallade jag inte mer,
satte mig vid datorn och myser lite istället.
Blir nog bra Lee, bra!
Peace out mother fuckers.
ENORM SAKNAD
Går inte att beskriva med ord.
Saknad.
Miss u
I´m tired. Oh so tired.
Let me just fall a sleep.
Wanna fall a sleep in you´r arms.
I miss them. So I tell myself not to go to sleep.
You´r body next to mine, you´r hand in mine.
Lookin at eachother deep in the eyes.
I feel my heartbeat starts to pump faster and faster.
I´m gettin´ all warm inside just thinking about you.
It´s not easy when it´s hard, they say....
Well.
I miss you... 4 real...
I don´t really know, but when you´r not at home -
U start to think what u have back home and u apriciate it much more.
Friends - I don´t know what I would do without u guys.
I fucking love you all :)
Let me just fall a sleep.
Wanna fall a sleep in you´r arms.
I miss them. So I tell myself not to go to sleep.
You´r body next to mine, you´r hand in mine.
Lookin at eachother deep in the eyes.
I feel my heartbeat starts to pump faster and faster.
I´m gettin´ all warm inside just thinking about you.
It´s not easy when it´s hard, they say....
Well.
I miss you... 4 real...
I don´t really know, but when you´r not at home -
U start to think what u have back home and u apriciate it much more.
Friends - I don´t know what I would do without u guys.
I fucking love you all :)
DOGGIDOOS
Stod på gymmet igår och kollade på MTV medans jag sprang på bandet.
ALL ACCESS visade ett program om kläd-designer som gör kläder för hundar.
HUNDAR??? Och heta coola restauranger för DOGSEN!
Wh00000t?? Vilken jävla jycke bryr sig någonsin om det?
Ett hippt inneställe för hundar där de serverar dyr hundmat?
Hade jag varit en hund hade jag tyckt det var sjukt
förnedrande över att ´ha någonting som de här på mig.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHHAAHHAHAHAH!!
Nä, låt hundarna vara hundar istället era jävla egoistiska cp idioter.
Likadant med dofter på hundar.
Hundar ska inte lukta parfym, dom ska lukta hund!!!
Marc Jacobs har gjort ett märke som heter BARC JACOBS..... Sjukt.
Sen att kändisar beter sig som idioter med sina djur betyder ju
inte att alla andra jävla cp:n måste göra likadant bara för att MTV
tycker det e coolt och att det säljer? Eller ja, tydligen??
Jag blir så lack, ska detta vara MODE????
Hade jag varit en stor känd designer så hade jag väl antagligen
också försökt lura alla jävla idioter på pengar och gjort något lika sjukt.
Sen skrattat dom i huvet och tycka att folk e idioter när man håvar in pengarna!
Det sjuka är ju att det säljer, för folk är cp nog att köpa skitet till sina jyckar.
SLUTA BÄRA PÅ HUNDARNA, låt dom gå själv.
Ska ni ha kläder på era hundar så ha dom ENBART för att dom kanske fryser när man går ut,
klä inte ut dom och färga inte deras päls och parfymera inte dom.
DOM ÄR DJUR FOR FUCK SAKE!!!!
ALL ACCESS visade ett program om kläd-designer som gör kläder för hundar.
HUNDAR??? Och heta coola restauranger för DOGSEN!
Wh00000t?? Vilken jävla jycke bryr sig någonsin om det?
Ett hippt inneställe för hundar där de serverar dyr hundmat?
Hade jag varit en hund hade jag tyckt det var sjukt
förnedrande över att ´ha någonting som de här på mig.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHHAAHHAHAHAH!!
Nä, låt hundarna vara hundar istället era jävla egoistiska cp idioter.
Likadant med dofter på hundar.
Hundar ska inte lukta parfym, dom ska lukta hund!!!
Marc Jacobs har gjort ett märke som heter BARC JACOBS..... Sjukt.
Sen att kändisar beter sig som idioter med sina djur betyder ju
inte att alla andra jävla cp:n måste göra likadant bara för att MTV
tycker det e coolt och att det säljer? Eller ja, tydligen??
Jag blir så lack, ska detta vara MODE????
Hade jag varit en stor känd designer så hade jag väl antagligen
också försökt lura alla jävla idioter på pengar och gjort något lika sjukt.
Sen skrattat dom i huvet och tycka att folk e idioter när man håvar in pengarna!
Det sjuka är ju att det säljer, för folk är cp nog att köpa skitet till sina jyckar.
SLUTA BÄRA PÅ HUNDARNA, låt dom gå själv.
Ska ni ha kläder på era hundar så ha dom ENBART för att dom kanske fryser när man går ut,
klä inte ut dom och färga inte deras päls och parfymera inte dom.
DOM ÄR DJUR FOR FUCK SAKE!!!!
And there we sat in the dark....
Funderar och tänker, som vanligt.
En vis man sa en gång till mig:
"Don´t underestimate the evolution of the human mind"
Det är väl något jag minns mycket väl.
För det är så rätt, men så svårt.
Jag är en sån typisk människa som har så mycket som jag tänker på
och har alldeles för många känslor för många, men jag vet inte hur jag ska hantera det.
Jag inbillar mig kärlek och känslor, som egentligen inte finns där.
Vet inte hur jag ska beteé mig och använda min hjärna korrekt.
Jag agerar först och tänker sen. Allt blir mest bara FEL då.
FEL. FEL. FEL.
Jag vet inte vad jag skulle gjort utan denna människa i mitt liv.
Denna människa får mig att må bra.
Det är en viss trygghet jag känner, och utan den så känner jag mig som nobody.
Precis som om jag inte kan andas.
Jag funderade på det igår när jag kom hem.
Tanken har varit i mitt huvud innan och jag mådde psykiskt dåligt av den då som nu.
Mina vänner betyder så fruktansvärt mycket för mig.
Ibland kan jag inte urskilja känslorna bara.
Vem är ens riktiga vänner och vem är inte?
Vem kan man lita på och vem älskar en för den man är?
Vem utnyttjar en? Etc etc.
Jag försöker att ge alla människor en chans dock.
Jag har nog varit med om alla sorters umgänge.
Jag har blivit sårad, dumpad, älskad, hatad.
Samtidigt som jag själv har sårat, dumpat, älskat och hatat.
Ingen är perfekt, alla gör misstag.
Men att göra dom mer än en gång, kallar jag en människa som sjunkigt lågt.
I mina ögon, andras ögon och allas ögon.
Nä. nu orkar jag inte tänka mer.
Nu ska jag gymma. (missade morgonpassen btw, stängde av mitt alarm)
PS! ANNA JAG SAKNAR OCH ÄLSKAR DIG!
Den där gången
Ibland dyker det upp konstiga tankar i mitt huvud.
När man är uppe sent om nätterna så brukar jag tänka för mycket på saker och ting.
Saker man försöker att glömma, men ändå ligger där och gror.
Det finns ingen jag kan diskutera det med heller.
Men en gång för länge sedan så hände det en sak.
En sak som aldrig borde ha hänt.
En sak som inte kunde kontrolleras.
En sak som gjorde så att jag varken visste ut eller in.
En sak som trots allt betydde något för mig.
Jag kan inte riktigt förklara sitsen jag sitter i.
Allt är bara så fel ibland. Vid tillfällen.
Men jag vet vad jag tyckte, tänkte och kände...då....
Idag är hela historien ett minne blått.
Ibland undrar jag bara om det betydde något....
Över huvudtaget.
Tanken slår mig då och då.
Men vänta... Schhyyyyyy....
När man är uppe sent om nätterna så brukar jag tänka för mycket på saker och ting.
Saker man försöker att glömma, men ändå ligger där och gror.
Det finns ingen jag kan diskutera det med heller.
Men en gång för länge sedan så hände det en sak.
En sak som aldrig borde ha hänt.
En sak som inte kunde kontrolleras.
En sak som gjorde så att jag varken visste ut eller in.
En sak som trots allt betydde något för mig.
Jag kan inte riktigt förklara sitsen jag sitter i.
Allt är bara så fel ibland. Vid tillfällen.
Men jag vet vad jag tyckte, tänkte och kände...då....
Idag är hela historien ett minne blått.
Ibland undrar jag bara om det betydde något....
Över huvudtaget.
Tanken slår mig då och då.
Men vänta... Schhyyyyyy....
