ૐ It's just me ☼ Lee Lee ૐ ☮ ♥

Time for blog post numero dos.

I’m at home in our big nice house in the jungle.

Packing my bags and getting ready to leave the island again for a month.

Next destination: Kota Kinabalu, Borneo, Malaysia.

Really looking forward to some unexplored teretory in the world.

My friend Joey that I used to work with on the yacht in Malaysia is getting married.

Joey was the chef on board the sail yacht while I was a stewardess.

We became very good friends during this time!

During the wedding it’s a purple theme in the church and red theme at the party afterwards.

My mission for today was to buy a purple dress.

Found it in Thong Sala after all.

I already have a red one, so that was good at least! :)

The only thing I need now is a belt.

I also found a wedding gift. Just a little something.

It’s really hard to buy a gift for someone you haven’t met for more than 3 years.

And specially when you’ve never met the bride either.

I’m so happy for him (them) though.

I should definetly pack my bags. It’s a lazy day today though.

I have a lot that I will keep here with Linda while I’m gone.

I mean, I have a massage table, a bag I sent with the mail from Sweden and then a big plastic bucket with full of stuff. A big backpack and a small one. That’s a lot!!!

I’m bringing 2 of them that’s all. 

Feel a bit sad because I will separate from Linda and Stine.

Stine is going home to Denmark again and Linda will be right here with the 3 dogs – Dottie, Truls and Tommy!

Amazing dogs by the way.

We howl together in the dark and we wake up the whole

neighborhood with dogs in the middle of the night…

I love Thailand. Really. And all the Thai dogs.

Dogs interest me a lot. I’ve always been a cat person, til couple of years ago.

I really really REALLY want a dog. I saw a clip with the minions today.

This will be for the new blog....

Hello there Koh Phanganer.

Let me introduce myself.

My name is Lee Persson and I’m a full timer Koh Phanganer since October 10.

I’m a Swedish young woman at the age of 28.

I have been living here on and off in 2 separate times before.

First time I visited this island was during a backpacking trip

I had in 2010 in South East Asia.

I started my backpacking in 2009.

I was away for 10 months and during that time I also

worked on a beautiful charter yacht in Malaysia.

Continued my traveling to both Thailand and Indonesia after a while

and one months before I went home,

I ended up at Agama Yoga’s First Level Intensive course here on Koh Phangan

by the help of a dear friend that I met in Mexico 2009.

I truly recomend everyone to do take that course. 

It changed my life!

After the course I flew back home, and I came home as a new person.

I grew up, I found myself and started to believe in myself again.

I became a woman slowly.

A changed life also ment a change of proffession.

I finally knew what I wanted to do with my life.

I went home, paid off loans,

sorted my life together while I changed my proffession at the same time.

All I wanted to do for 3 years was to go back to Koh Phangan.

And surviving the winters in a cold ass country like Sweden was a pain in the ass.

And it's the same thing every year, I never get used to it.

That's how much of a VIKING I am. 

I'm just born in the wrong country.

If I were going to continue in the Yogic track, I had to aim to be a teacher.

Then I can work as it, while I work on myself at the same time.

Win Win situation.

In January 2013 I did my teacher training at Agama Yoga.

It took a while, but I never stopped believing myself.

I push myself to the limit all the time.

Sometimes I scare myself that I'm not afraid of anything. (Almost)

But I have to say that this was one of the hardest thing I have

ever done in my life so far… Mentally. Only!

But it was worth ever single minute of it.

And it’s not until now afterwards that I really

have the time to melt everything I learned.

We were a family of 24 (?) beautiful people from all over the world.

Everyone was so different and unique in their own way.

And for 3 months we went through heaven and hell together.

After my teacher training I stayed on the island for 3 more months

(a total stay of 6 months and 1 day over stay and a fee of 500 baht)

And during that time, I felt so open and free.

I had one of the best feelings in my life.

I was happy, lucky and felt so much love towards everything.

In the beginning it was very different to blend in with ”normal” people again,

but couple of weeks in ”freedom” from the school

made me have such energy to do what ever I wanted.

Things I’ve never done before. I was full on with everything!

I had an amazing time with other words.

Then it was time to leave, go back home to Sweden,

get my super expensive Swedish drivers license and sell my stuff and leave again.

A big process, not like US and A, that more or less gets it in a Chocolate Kinder Egg.

During the time at home between my studies, I decided to do an egg donation.

(more about this later in a different post)

And I decided to do the donation in Mexico.

I have this thing with islands. I love the sea and the island life.

But this island is as unique as Koh Phangan is, but in a different way.

Name: Isla Mujeres, Quintana Roo, Mexico.

Many of you may have been there already.

I’m sorry to say it but the sea here in Thailand has nothing to offer

when you compare it to the caribbean sea.

It’s clear blue, aquamarine. Turquoise.

That’s where I was going in between my studies. That’s my island!

The actual clinic I was going to is located in Cancun,

which is a ferry ride of 25 minutes.

But I lived many of my days during my stay on Isla Mujeres.

Last time when I was there was beginning of 2009.

A very memorable time there when it comes to happenings in life.

It was also my first backpacking trip and that also

gave me another perspective of the world.

It ment a lot to be back there. It felt like yesterday.

I just went back in time and the people I met this time reminded me 

of people I met the time before in 2009.

But this time it felt 10 times better. And I felt grown up!

I guess I have to say I’m one of the tourists that says:

”And then….I met this guy” …

Amazing guy. From Arizona. Very special.

I won’t name him, and go into details cuz that’s not just cool.

I can call him Mr Arizona.

He knows who he is and I am just a very happy woman that

I had the possibility to have met him and had him in my life for a while.

And what happened after that was that he came to Sweden to see me.

After my donation,

right after I passed my license and before coming back to Koh Phangan.

Very hectic time for me mentally.

Didn’t really think so much about it back then but NOW when I think about it,

I had so much shit to take care of while I wanted

to be with Mr Arizona at the same time.

Having someone over from another part of the world is not everyday it happens.

It ment a lot, no doubt about it.

After little bit more than a week in Sweden, we both said goodbye.

He went back to Arizona and I went to Thailand. Traveling life.

You meet amazing people, share something nice and might never see eachother again.

Detachment. Still working hard on that part. Still very hard.

Sometimes I want to slap myself in the face because of it.

I let the destiny decide if we are going to meet again.

If it’s ment to be, it will be…and that comes to everything!

I arrived in Bangkok, october 8 after a 20 hour flight total.

20 minutes after I arrived with far too many bags into my hotel room,

in the middle of Khao San Road, my ex knocked on the door.

Instead of me sleeping,

he showed me around Bangkok and he helped me doing some arends.

We are still good friends. (Even if we had almost 2 years without talking)

Also a very strong connection and we are very alike.

Also an American,

who have been living here in Thailand with his 1 year old kid and a Thai wife since I left 2010.

Won’t mention names but lets call him ”The Libra”.

He will for sure come up in other blog posts.

Two days in Bangkok and then I took the night bus to Koh Phangan.

18 hours total. Bus and boat. 

Just arriving at the dock in Thong Sala, made me so happy. 

I made it here, AGAIN.

And... this time, it's for ever. (Or we'll see where I end up)

Being away from the island made me appriciate it a lot more too.

I live with 2 amazing women in the jungle, close to the Sri Thanu area.

Linda and her visiting friend Stine from Copenhagen, Denmark.

Almost family in Scandinavia too.

It’s just 20 minutes away with the bridge from Sweden.

Now me and Linda are roomies but I’m leaving for a wedding in Malaysia tomorrow.

And then to Chiang Mai for a Thai yoga massage course.

I’ll be back in the beginning of december and then I will

have a new built house in Sri Thanu area.

And my good friends Brahm and Mae who have the Drum jams

on sundays will be my new neighbors.

That’s all for today. That’s a sneak peak about who I am and what I’m doing.

More will come tomorrow. Stay tuned! 

Hello dear readers!

So, here is another update.

I know I’ve been bad with my updates but it’s because we don’t

really have internet at home in the jungle.

This update is going to be about SEX. Just so you know ;)

But no details haha

So. Anyway. I’ve been thinking… Like always…

I do have the time for a lot of thinking now haha.

MEN.  

When it comes to men, I really know what I want now.

And one of those things is a MAN and not a little boy.

Maybe because I grew up all of a sudden and became a young woman?

And to be honest, I prefer a mental connection or

at least something that feels a bit special instead of a one night stand.

Or meeting someone with a childish behavior and just thinks about how to get laid.

Because that’s just a boy to me.

Been there done that, time to move on.

Everyone is different, and I do like different types of men,

but in general I have my characteristics of a man. 

(Not the outside, just the inside)

And of course I want to get laid too but I like to be brain fucked first.

There you have it.

Even if it's just with a guy I maybe never will see again

I mean....otherwise I could go home and my dildo could give me more pleasure haha

I need a connection, fire and passion. SEX is so much more to me.

It shouldn’t be too easy. If so, you get bored and want to move on…

I never tried the whole thing when it comes to having an open relationship

like everyone else here in the Tantric community. (not everyone)

When I like/love someone I don’t really want to be with someone else.

It’s still hard to get used to. I just think that some people are not made to be that way.

Being an Aquarian is already hard enough haha ;)

I mean, I’m single and I can sleep around if I want to, but I choose not to.

It's not my thing. It’s not hard to get laid on a SEX island like this.

Yes, that's what I call Koh Phangan. It's a looooot of sexual energy here.

And it's not hard, specially not if you are a Swedish blond young woman.

I never had so much attention in my LIFE!

I do it when I want to and if it feels right.

I’m a good girl actually, even if I have my slutty sides.

(EVERY WOMAN has it deep within)

And the ones who says NO, lies!

I just hate that I’m so picky. Or… actually… I love it.

Cuz when someone shows that they like me or want me,

it’s my turn to respond and I like to handpick my men very wisely...

I would like to say that I have a lot of self respect and don't pick the first best.

Should I say that I have been with enough guys

to know who is a good guy and an asshole?

Well... sometimes it’s hard to tell… but you learn from your mistakes, right? ;)

I do know now after the Tantra 1 workshop, the difference between love and sex.

It might be a very simple thing to say,

but when it comes to knowing it can be a lot harder.

I thought I knew… Oh boy was I wrong.

I'm doing the Tantra 2 in january wich is going to be really nice and interesting.

What ever happens, happens. I let my faith be in Shivas hands.