Meeting with Swami
Today I had a personal meeting with Swami Vivekananda.
I was a bit nervous before the meeting,
but as soon as I saw his face and his orange little headband I was just smiling.
He is sending out good energy and I like just to look at him, makes me calm.
He had been giving my astrological signs before class and know where I am from etc.
He said that I am one of the best signs and people.
I am an aquarious in sun, capricorn in moon and accendent in Libra.
So I have two air signs, which is really good he said.
I am a person who likes to touch and be touched. (true)
He started to say things about Sweden and Scandinavians.
We are pretty smart people but not so many Swedes have a big Anahatha (heart chakra) open.
So, they leave the country because they feel that they don't fit in or that it is better love somewhere else.
(Exactly how I feel by the way)
So for me, who is a air sign and don't feel that love and to be close to someone makes me feeling bad.
I just have to get used to the enviroment here I guess, that's why I've been stressed out.
Can't focus and can't understand... But it's getting better and better each day.
He told me to work on to open my Anahatha and my Manipura (fire - strenght)
To build up my confident again and to be strong. (AGREE)
Manipura is main practise. And that will also help me to focus more.
He told me that I have A LOT of Svadistana .... Toooooo much of it!
With other words, TOOOOO MUCH sexual energy.
Sex for me is like medicine. (Also true)
I talked about my urinary infection and my appendix removal.
The appendix is lack of manipura och urinary infection can be when
I haven't had sex for a while and all of a sudden I do, cure it and cool for a while.
Then you need to have a lot of sex he said.
(He is so funny)
"You are like a sex godess!"
He told me to get naked and look at myself in the mirror and see
for myself that I am a good looking young woman.
Get one boyfriend, or maybe 2... or even 3... Have fun! :D
I love this guy, Swami Vivekananda - You made my day!
Ayurvedic consultation
Yesterday I went to see the ayurvedic/ homepathic doctor we have in school, Mihaela.
We had a consultation for 1,5 hours about almost everything in my life.
From sex to childhood to food and to habbits etc.
I told her the story about my sore throat I had for many years,
which no one manage to "cure".
She gave me some stuff I have to work on, not to the throat but other things.
Some advice and some homeopathic pills.
She gave me the pills today after the Laya Yoga initiation
we had with Swami and not yesterday.
When I talked to her, she had no voice.
She told me that she lost her voice after our consultation.
Is that a coinsedent or is it related?
What do you think? Well... I know that it has to be related!
I feel sorry for her though, but now she probably knows how I feel ;)
I have to say that this island... is special. very special.
It gives me the same vibe that Isla Mujeres gave me, but in a different way.
Isla is still number one, but the whole "get together" and the kinds of people.
I love the Yoga people. There are many weird ones, but in general...
They are all very lovely and sweet!
Maybe that's why I like it here so much...
Cuz I'm a weirdo too?
I do wich to stay here for a longer period of time and hopefully I can stay and work!
Now it's time to study!
Cheerioooo amigos!
Listen to your intuition
Going deeper into Yoga and listening to myself and my actions,
my intuition is getting bigger.
This is a good exemple:
Me and Steve just got up on the motorbike and driving from 7/11 when I got this feeling in my stomach.
The feeling of that something bad was going to happen.
I tell myself that nothing is going to happen (think positive right?)
and we continue driving.
My first thought was the driving.
Not speed to fast or we can crash etc.
I try to build up some positive energy around us.
We passed 2 thai guys and later on my feeling gets stronger.
In the little curve going down the hill, I tell Steve to slow down and be careful.
He says allright.
Seconds after that... The Thai guys drive up next to us on the LEFT side.
I know something was up.
It all happened very quickly. And I thought he hitted Steve,
But he stole his little green bag where he keeps his money.
Didn't have so much money left though and his phone was in there.
Luckely it was a cheap phone and there was not much to take.
Steve speeds up but I told him not to,
cuz we could be in more trouble or accident on the bike that we were allready in.
Shit happens.
I am just very very lucky that they didn't take my bag.
Cuz I had a lot of expensive stuff in my bag.
Tomorrow I will NOT bring so much. Just in case!
I guess I built up that energy around myself and not Steve...
But I was right... my intuiton.
Like always.
I feel something and I'm most of the time always right!
This Yoga is doing good stuff with me...
BTW. Here is some pictures....
Sanka Praksalana
It's sunday and that means a day off.
Me and Steve woke up and I did my Kriyas.
So, again... Kriyas is a type of cleansing tecniques.
1. Tongue scraper
2. Take a little egg holder or something that has about the same size as the eye.
put water in it and clean the eyes.
3. Brush my teeth with sea salt or himalayan salt. on the gum and under the tongue.
I brush my teeth with toothpaste afterwards as well...
4. Neti pot. Fill the little neti pot with about one teaspoon salt. (same salt as you use for the gum)
Take room tempratured water and mix and than pour from one nose to another.
Do it on both sides (nostrils)
Be gentle with your nose ans don't blow out the mukus to hard.
After that, it was time to beging our big purification tecnique.
"SANKA PRAKSALANA"
Or what we can call it: Peeing from your ass.
You mix same salt (one table spoon) with one liter of water.
A little bit warmer than room temprature.
You drink one glass of this warmed up salted water.
After each glass you do different movements
First movement:
From left to right at least 4 times.
Second movement:
Stretch horizontally left and right.
Third movement:
Forth movement:
Variation of the forth movement:
After you stopped the quick movements you can continue
to drink more of the salted water.
Repeat it over and over again until you feel like going to the toilette.
When you have been to the toilette so many times so you are peeing your shit.
If you want to know exactly how you do the exercises, let me know and I'll tell you.
After you are done, you can't eat anything you like.
You have to eat a special diet for at least 24 hours and certain things for 48 hours.
If you want to know more about this, let me know and I'll tell you what to eat.
That's all for me today.
I'm about to finish my last glass.
And go and eat. I'm soooo hungry! :D
And I'm listening to Skaburbian Collective...
But the songs name is Koh Phangan.
It's not on Youtube though... It's a good song and it fits right in over here ;)
Yoga day 14 (?)
I stoped counting the days of my Yoga.
They just fly by now...
I tell myself to focus and start study every day....
I'm just so exausted and tired when I'm finished with school.
There is NO time. I don't know how to do it!?
Maybe I have some sort of distraction?
You tell me!
Well... Anyways....
Purification, cleansing, detoxing or what ever you like to call it, IS A BITCH!
Just like the last time I was here... But I know it's for my own good.
All bad stuff is coming out.
And just like the last time,
I have no explanation for what's happening.
I woke up 6.45 this morning and had to pee so bad.
Maybe a urinary infection OR urinal fungal... I don't know.
Same time, blood coming out the other way and my stomach felt really bad.
I'm having a GOOD KARMA. Sure.....
So... Anyway, I get my ass up to class anyway and I do my asanas
(except the ones who includes something with massaging the stomach).
During class I just burst out in tears. Out of the blue. No idea why.
Yes, purification can do a LOT of things to you (included when it comes to feelings)
My teacher Amy she gave me a big hug and cheered me up a bit,
she thought I was strong to come to class and that I did good for not being 100 %
I finished class, and I felt better again.
I had more energy and I decided to go easy with the stomach and fast for the day.
So, for the whole day I've just been drinking water, shakes and a coconut.
While Steve and Jesse have been eating MEXICAN food in front of me (IN MY FACE).
Jesse is a cool guy from Vancouver, Canada.
Awesome dude actually and he has got a good vibe.
(He is the one in the green pants btw)
This is from sundays drum circle. Loved it.
I started to get go know pretty awesome cool people on this island now.
I love it and it actually reminds me A LOT of Isla Mujeres some how.
Even though I don't have so much time to socialise with people,
Steve helps me out with that somehow after class haha.
I love the vibe from Koh Phangan, the beaches,
the people you connect with and of course the school.
Pretty awesome hippies out here. But it's just a matter of location and where to find it.
This part of the island is the best.
I haven't been to Haad Rin (where the fullmoon parties and tourist goes)
And I don't want to either to be honest!
Promised Leo to eat a fish with my bare hands the other day.
So I did. I bought a black snapper :)
Should be studying
Okey... I can't make up my mind.
English or Swedish?
Swedish is so much easier, but it's a language I will never forget.
So... English, improvement ... but... I'll guess it depends how lazy I am with my writing.
I'm so tired every day and I barely don't have time to do anything.
I was suppose to study, but here I am.. WHOOMP WHOOOMP...
Can barely keep my eyes open and it's just 22.00
Steve is gone for a Visa run over night so I'm alone tonight.
It's nice actually to have a little time for myself.
I haven't had that in a long time. Not even at home.
Trying to transfer some audio I recorded in school.
But it's not working really.
I had to download a new program and then my memory was full and now I can't transfer it to the computer.
Well, I guess that's the karma from not being allowed to record in the first place.
Whomp whomp...Again.
So. Now I deleted all info I had.
And now it's raining too. I need to go to bed before I crash. Haha.
To be continued.
A little update...
Ja det är äntligen dags att uppdatera min blogg. Igen.
Jag har väl varit i väg typ sådär 15 dagar nu typ, det känns som mer dock.
Har inte hunnit att uppdatera så mycket då jag inte haft tiden till det.
Jag går i skolan kl 08.30- 13 sen har jag paus till kl 16 och går sen till kl 20...
Så kl. 20 är jag totalt död om jag inte får i mig mat.
Och när jag väl har fått i mig mat så är klockan oftast runt 21:30-22:00
Inte nog med det, så ska jag spendera tid med Steve och lära känna folk utöver det.
Jag ORKAR INTE. Jag känner mig som en gammal tant och vill bara gå i säng och vila.
Plugga, kolla tv, slappa och skriva, gå på massage och sola o bada.
Detta är utanför var vi bor. Ja. Jobbigt va?
Det är intensiva dagar i skolan och jag hinner inte göra så mycket för att vara ärlig.
Inte ett skit för att vara ärlig.
På de 3 timmar jag e ledig på dagen så hinner man liiiiiite sol och mat sen måste man tillbaka till skolan igen.
De enda dagarna vi har lediga är söndagar.
Men det är skönt och roligt då jag verkligen gillar att ha något att göra,
men samtidigt är jag i ett varmt skönt land och vill njuta lite av det också.
Får väl göra det efter kursen I guess. Om jag inte är pank tills dess.
Med andra ord, skolan går bra och jag trivs som en fisk i havet.
Yoga hela tiden, kan ju inte bli bättre :)
Och det händer saker hela tiden. Mentalt, spirituellt, fysiskt etc.
Men det är skönt och jag absolut älskar det, men det tar mkt på en.
Som ni alla kanske har undrat så måste jag säga att det gåttprecis som planerat.
När det kommer till kärleken då.
Det är nästan fööööör bra för mig, och jag är inte van vid så mycket lycka och kärlek på en gång,
så jag nästan flippar ut av allt gott på en gång.
Men jag gillar det, jag tycker inte det är något dåligt.
Måste väl bara vänja mig vid det helt enkelt.
Steve är underbar. Som en dröm.
Han är fantastisk men väldigt väldigt vääääldigt annorlunda om man jämnför
med andra män jag träffat tidigare i mitt liv. Jag gillar det för det e väldigt annorlunda.
Med andra ord, vi är ganska kära i varandra och vi lever på en paradisö tillsammans.
Samtidigt försöker vi leva ett normalt liv, då detta inte är en riktig semester utan mer ett syfte.
Min tanke är att stanna så länge jag kan, precis som sist.
Räcker pengarna så kommer vi BÅDA gå en TEFL kurs (engelsk lärare utbildning)
Och sen vet man aldrig vart man hamnar i världen! :)
Det var dagens update. mer kommer senare. När tiden räcker till :)
Peace
OLD OUT, NEW IN
Detta är nog den bästa starten jag kommer till att få EVER på ett nytt år.
Allt gammalt är verkligen långt bakom mig och jag känner att detta kommer bli ett bra år.
Den där nya eran som alla pratar om (efter att världen skulle gått under)
Jag tror jag ser det nu... Allt faller på plats. Folk börjar fatta.
Du kan inte gå vidare i livet om du inte klarar upp dina problem först.
Jag är stolt över mig själv att jag är så modig och tar tag i det jag verkligen vill med mitt liv.
Försöker dealar med skiten för att kunna gå vidare. Men jag förstår verkligen nu.
Jag är extremt glad över att jag är där jag är i dag och att jag tog steget (igen) och gjorde det.
Ännu en sak jag kan bocka av i från min bucket list.
Detta är starten på något väldigt bra känner jag.
Att resa är fan livet.
Då snackar jag inte en charter resa på Kreta.
Nu snackar jag resa på riktigt.
Lär känna folk, kultur och det bästa är nog det du lär dig i från alla du träffar.
Möten, det är viktigt i livet.
Tänk på det gott folk.
Sen spelar det inte någon roll vad för inverkan personen har på dig.
Positivt som negativt.
Jag är glad över att ha så många underbara vänner i mitt liv.
Och jag är glad över de jag vänner som jag haft,
det har lärt mig mycket på många olika sätt.
Jag känner inte något ont mot någon som jag har haft i mitt liv,
de har varit där utav en anledning.
Jag har lärt mig och mer kommer jag att lära.
Jag kommer till att uppfylla en av mina största drömmar
(som jag har haft de senaste 5 åren) typ...
Ja, om några timmar så bär det av till Thailand där jag ska gå 3 månader och bli Yoga lärare.
Efter det så vet man inte vad som väntar mig i världen.
Min hem biljett är 16 april, men vem vet...
Det kanske blir 4, kanske 5, kanske 6 månder...
Kanske ett år, och kanske fler... Vem vet?
Jag kanske inte kommer hem?
Det låter jag ödet bestämma.....
Eller ja... mest pengarna.
Men jag kommer göra ALLT för att få ett jobb igen där nere.
Jag har planer.
Och jag är inställd själv på att aldrig mer komma hem.
Det kommer inte att vara enkelt, det vet jag.
Men jag vet om att det kommer att vara värt det.
Dessutom får jag ett underbart paket på köpet mitt i allt detta borta i Thailand.
Ett paket som kom ganska oväntat, rakt pang boom in i hjärtat.
En fin människa klampade rakt in där och bosatte sig,
och kommer sitta där ett långt tag hoppas jag.
Jag måste säga att jag redan lever på dom rosa molnen och jag är lycklig oavsett vad som händer.
Jag önskar alla ett gott nytt år och hoppas att ni haft en lika bra start på året som mig.
Och för er sura svenskar som är avundsjuka så kan jag ju säga att
jag måste ta mig till kastrup i morgon utan vinter jacka.
Men efter den biten så säger jag FUCK YOU Sweden and your cold climate!
Jag älskar er alla <3
Peace
