ૐ It's just me ☼ Lee Lee ૐ ☮ ♥

To start with I have to say that I am SO GLAD

that I didn't sell or give away my American BUCK KNIFE!

It's always, always, always good to have a knife when you travel.

You NEVER know when you need it!

Todays pose – The wheel pose.

I have to say that my strenght isn't that good in my arms,

I couldn't come up, so I stood on my head instead hahaha.

Yeah yeah, it's coming I guess. I am so bad of being patient though.

We did some concentration of the mind today with the ping pong ball.

I almost got mad & angry and wanted to throw away the damn ball.

I don't know why, but I guess it's because I am so NOT PATIENT!

This is how I was thinking for a while:

Focus, Focus, Focus. No, no focus at all.

Lalallaalala... I don't see a F*cking ping pong ball!

Focus. Try. HARD!

I wonder how long we are gonna do this for?

Hmmm... Lee FOCUS on the BALL!

I wonder what I'm gonna eat later, I am hungry!

White ping pong ball in my head, lalalalala....

Focus. Focus, No. No focus.

This is almost like in KILL BILL when she talks to her toe haha!

FOCUS LEELEE! White ball, white ball, white ball....

I wonder if you see alot of ping pong balls flying if you eat mushrooms?

Oh, I can write this in my blog later... HAHA... FOCUS!!!!!!!!

DAMN BALL I HATE YOU!

(Yeah...as you see, my concentration is bad so I didn't see a ball)

JASON said a good thing : WE HAVE MONKEY BRAINS!

We are everywhere in the same time...

Jumping around with our thoughts. Good said Jason!

I AM A MONKEY!!!!!!!!

Todays subject on the lecture was about Yama and Niyama.

Click and read more about it or google it yourself to read other pages.

This was the second time we talked about it, from different aspects etc.

Our teacher today was Laura.

I haven't talked with so many of the teachers.

But as soon as I saw Laura I liked her somehow.

And even more when she opened her mouth.

She seems to be so friendly, calm, smart and funny.

I think that all of them are really good.

Jason is also a favorite, even if I haven't said a word to him.

I prefer to look at him instead hahaha.

Anyway, Laura lectured us about the Yama & Niyama.

About telling the truth, being honest, not harm others etc.

She said something I liked: NO RELIGION IS BIGGER THEN THE TRUTH!

As soon as we started to talk about this,

I noticed a heavy rock in my stumache.

I know that I am trying to become clean with everything I've done in the past.

But some things is not just possible to deal with.

If I tell the truth I harm others, but if I'm not I harm myself and I lie.

I hate to lie, hate hate hate. But I have no choice.

I decided to talk to Laura about it after class.

Since she is one of those you can go and talk to, get advise, help etc.

I felt nervous and I almost couldn't speak.

So, I told her my story and maybe she could give me advise or help.

She couldn't say a word. The story is just a mess!

There is so much and many involved so she couldn't say much more

then I have to try to forgive myself what I have done.

Because if I want to become clean, I am ego and can destroy for other people.

Great, this just made it easier.... Uhhh...