Phanganist blog...
This will be for the new blog....
Hello there Koh Phanganer.
Let me introduce myself.
My name is Lee Persson and I’m a full timer Koh Phanganer since October 10.
I’m a Swedish young woman at the age of 28.
I have been living here on and off in 2 separate times before.
First time I visited this island was during a backpacking trip
I had in 2010 in South East Asia.
I started my backpacking in 2009.
I was away for 10 months and during that time I also
worked on a beautiful charter yacht in Malaysia.
Continued my traveling to both Thailand and Indonesia after a while
and one months before I went home,
I ended up at Agama Yoga’s First Level Intensive course here on Koh Phangan
by the help of a dear friend that I met in Mexico 2009.
I truly recomend everyone to do take that course.
It changed my life!
After the course I flew back home, and I came home as a new person.
I grew up, I found myself and started to believe in myself again.
I became a woman slowly.
A changed life also ment a change of proffession.
I finally knew what I wanted to do with my life.
I went home, paid off loans,
sorted my life together while I changed my proffession at the same time.
All I wanted to do for 3 years was to go back to Koh Phangan.
And surviving the winters in a cold ass country like Sweden was a pain in the ass.
And it's the same thing every year, I never get used to it.
That's how much of a VIKING I am.
I'm just born in the wrong country.
If I were going to continue in the Yogic track, I had to aim to be a teacher.
Then I can work as it, while I work on myself at the same time.
Win Win situation.
In January 2013 I did my teacher training at Agama Yoga.
It took a while, but I never stopped believing myself.
I push myself to the limit all the time.
Sometimes I scare myself that I'm not afraid of anything. (Almost)
But I have to say that this was one of the hardest thing I have
ever done in my life so far… Mentally. Only!
But it was worth ever single minute of it.
And it’s not until now afterwards that I really
have the time to melt everything I learned.
We were a family of 24 (?) beautiful people from all over the world.
Everyone was so different and unique in their own way.
And for 3 months we went through heaven and hell together.
After my teacher training I stayed on the island for 3 more months
(a total stay of 6 months and 1 day over stay and a fee of 500 baht)
And during that time, I felt so open and free.
I had one of the best feelings in my life.
I was happy, lucky and felt so much love towards everything.
In the beginning it was very different to blend in with ”normal” people again,
but couple of weeks in ”freedom” from the school
made me have such energy to do what ever I wanted.
Things I’ve never done before. I was full on with everything!
I had an amazing time with other words.
Then it was time to leave, go back home to Sweden,
get my super expensive Swedish drivers license and sell my stuff and leave again.
A big process, not like US and A, that more or less gets it in a Chocolate Kinder Egg.
During the time at home between my studies, I decided to do an egg donation.
(more about this later in a different post)
And I decided to do the donation in Mexico.
I have this thing with islands. I love the sea and the island life.
But this island is as unique as Koh Phangan is, but in a different way.
Name: Isla Mujeres, Quintana Roo, Mexico.
Many of you may have been there already.
I’m sorry to say it but the sea here in Thailand has nothing to offer
when you compare it to the caribbean sea.
It’s clear blue, aquamarine. Turquoise.
That’s where I was going in between my studies. That’s my island!
The actual clinic I was going to is located in Cancun,
which is a ferry ride of 25 minutes.
But I lived many of my days during my stay on Isla Mujeres.
Last time when I was there was beginning of 2009.
A very memorable time there when it comes to happenings in life.
It was also my first backpacking trip and that also
gave me another perspective of the world.
It ment a lot to be back there. It felt like yesterday.
I just went back in time and the people I met this time reminded me
of people I met the time before in 2009.
But this time it felt 10 times better. And I felt grown up!
I guess I have to say I’m one of the tourists that says:
”And then….I met this guy” …
Amazing guy. From Arizona. Very special.
I won’t name him, and go into details cuz that’s not just cool.
I can call him Mr Arizona.
He knows who he is and I am just a very happy woman that
I had the possibility to have met him and had him in my life for a while.
And what happened after that was that he came to Sweden to see me.
After my donation,
right after I passed my license and before coming back to Koh Phangan.
Very hectic time for me mentally.
Didn’t really think so much about it back then but NOW when I think about it,
I had so much shit to take care of while I wanted
to be with Mr Arizona at the same time.
Having someone over from another part of the world is not everyday it happens.
It ment a lot, no doubt about it.
After little bit more than a week in Sweden, we both said goodbye.
He went back to Arizona and I went to Thailand. Traveling life.
You meet amazing people, share something nice and might never see eachother again.
Detachment. Still working hard on that part. Still very hard.
Sometimes I want to slap myself in the face because of it.
I let the destiny decide if we are going to meet again.
If it’s ment to be, it will be…and that comes to everything!
I arrived in Bangkok, october 8 after a 20 hour flight total.
20 minutes after I arrived with far too many bags into my hotel room,
in the middle of Khao San Road, my ex knocked on the door.
Instead of me sleeping,
he showed me around Bangkok and he helped me doing some arends.
We are still good friends. (Even if we had almost 2 years without talking)
Also a very strong connection and we are very alike.
Also an American,
who have been living here in Thailand with his 1 year old kid and a Thai wife since I left 2010.
Won’t mention names but lets call him ”The Libra”.
He will for sure come up in other blog posts.
Two days in Bangkok and then I took the night bus to Koh Phangan.
18 hours total. Bus and boat.
Just arriving at the dock in Thong Sala, made me so happy.
I made it here, AGAIN.
And... this time, it's for ever. (Or we'll see where I end up)
Being away from the island made me appriciate it a lot more too.
I live with 2 amazing women in the jungle, close to the Sri Thanu area.
Linda and her visiting friend Stine from Copenhagen, Denmark.
Almost family in Scandinavia too.
It’s just 20 minutes away with the bridge from Sweden.
Now me and Linda are roomies but I’m leaving for a wedding in Malaysia tomorrow.
And then to Chiang Mai for a Thai yoga massage course.
I’ll be back in the beginning of december and then I will
have a new built house in Sri Thanu area.
And my good friends Brahm and Mae who have the Drum jams
on sundays will be my new neighbors.
That’s all for today. That’s a sneak peak about who I am and what I’m doing.
More will come tomorrow. Stay tuned!
Write a blog...
Goodmorning everyone....
So, last night we had a BBQ in our house.
It turned out to be fantastic.
A lot of people showed up (12 of us all together)
I bought 4 fish (red snappers) and 2 chicken breasts.
Rice and fried vegetables in oyster sauce...
And corn.
Mae brought corn fritters (Canadian style)
Ralf and his wife brought spareribs and wine
RESULT: AMAZING!
I had 2 glasses of home made organic red wine that Mae also got
from one woman that lives on the island and have a destillery with Phangan liquore.
It was so fruity and nice, compared to the other red wine I was drinking ;)
Everyone got along, and some already knew eachother and it was really a nice night.
Good times for sure. And such a mix of people.
Israelis, swede, danes, japanese, thai, german, canadians.
Wonderful mix.
I also made a deal with Sharon (Lindas friend).
Linda and Sharon have the website www.phanganist.com together.
On the website you find many things.
Of the island of Koh Phangan of course.
Parties, locations and soooo much more.
My deal with Sharon was to write my blog, on their website. Daily.
I can write about what ever I want to so I guess
my blog here will no longer be in use later.
Or, I'll just post the same blog here as there. ;)
Great!
So, now you can follow me on this island in detail.
I love it. Good for my ego hahaha...
To be continued...
(I'm having breakfast with Stine at Ananda and I don't want to be too rude haha)
Smell u later :D
Jeeeet laaaag
I've got big black bags under my eyes...
At least that what it feels like.
I can't take this whole jet lag thing anymore. Getting used to it many times makes my body tired and feeling weird for a loooong time when I fly long flights. I barely got used to Mexico! Took a while anyway... Tonight I go back to Koh Phangan. Can't wait to get there! :) and fiiiiiinally I can drink my coconuts
Swe: Praktik...
Detta blir på svenska:
Jag har fåtal dagar kvar i detta landet.
Då jag inte varit hel tids arbetande på ett tag så är det samma gamla
vanliga sak med att fortsätta med A-kassa osv.
Då det gått ett bra tag nu där jag ej arbetat heltid så har jag kommit till den så kallade Fas 3.
Ja, det är typ den värsta fasen du kan komma till (enligt alla)
Jag har nu blivit placerad på ett ställe.
Jag fick välja själv i från en pärm som de har liggandes inne på AMS där du inte ska praktisera,
utan du ska göra de sysslor som du mer eller mindra gör hemma.
Det är fritt att göra vad man vill men bara du är där 8 timmar om dagen.
Och det stället jag valde är GIVETVIS ett ställe för massa äldre människor.
40 + snackar vi om då.
Och hej och hå vad de är glada i mig (speciellt nu när jag gjort mig snygg i dag)
Dom lämnar inte mig i fred, men gud vilka underbara människor att prata med.
Bredvid mig just nu sitter en gubbe i en soffa och mediterar.
Random.
Stället heter Hibiscus och viben jag får här är fantastisk
och underbara människor med hopp och glädje.
De kallar dom själv för Hibiscus familjen! :)
Jag önskar att jag stannade här och lärde känna dessa människor.
De flesta talar spanska.
Och nu kanske ni undrar varför jag gjort mig snygg i dag.
Ja, då ska jag berätta för er att jag får besök i dag i från USA.
Om 4 timmar landar han, det ska bli underbart att få ha honom här.
Trodde aldrig att det skulle hända på riktigt <3
Nu måste jag kila. Puss på er!
"A fish in the water"
I was reading horoscopes and reading a bit about astrology
just now when I came across this...
and I really like what I read.
This is the third blog post today. Jeeez...
"We searched for each other
in the most unlikely places,
among the most unlikely people,
And when our paths finally crossed,
it was for reasons so entangled
in our daily bread,
and the usual trespasses
That we might not even have noticed,
except for that faint quiver
of wonder
like a passing chill
from the night air
We loved.
And the closest we've come,br> to explaining why,
Is Because it was you,
and because it was I."
<3
Sunday....again.
This week has been one of the most boring ones in a long long time.
You have to force yourself to stay at home all day everyday.
Because I KNOW that if I do something else,
my mind won't be able to concentrate to do something else.
Yes, I'm a very AIRY person.
(Don't let me explain what it means to be an airy person,
because then I would need to post 3 posts about it haha)
And it's enough that we have a kid in the apartment.
I'm hiding in my room and I try to study,
but the only thing I can think of at the moment is liqurice.
Surprise huh? haha
I need to go and buy some sunday candy.
And I do want to play with Liam instead too, because children are just too much fun.
I'm going to do Yoga at 2 hours.
I might not just go because I NEED to sit here and study hard.
And AFTER I've been studying hard, I can do my OWN yoga at home. Hopefully.
Or I just end up eating more candy and study some more.
Yes...
I went to the store. I needed my swedish candy haha
And now I'm eating my dinner from yesterday.
It's going to be a long night with studying. Again.
Signing out. Over and out!
Let it be Tuesday
Please, can it just be Tuesday now and let it be over and done? Please!
I'm stressing out and the only thing I want to do now is to chill the fuck out before I leave Sweden for ever...
I guess it's no time for that!?
What will happen?! I'm excited to see what's up after Tuesday!
Wish me luck
All the roads lead to Cali
Here I am. Studying.
Not thinking about California.
Yes, I still get signs from California everyday.
If it's not tv, it's conversation, someone I meet, a sign, a text or something else...
So... My sign for today is in my study books. In my face, again.
I need to go to California?!?!?!?
Fug
Studies, steps and crayfish
I'm taking the step.
Are you?
All I have to say when you are afraid is:
JUST DO IT!
(I should work on Nike)
So this is mine and Anna's "kräftskiva"
(Crayfish party)
Really nice night with a LOT of food!
Thank you sweetheart for an amazing night....
Back to my studies....
Driving
I just have to say that my driving instructor is the best!!!!
I've been driving with 5 of them but Micke at Triangelns Trafikskola is so far one of the most chill people and he has got the best attitude.
Totally silly, just like me. But can be serious when needed!
He sings songs for me, makes silly jokes, try to blindfold me or just be annoying in the car. Of course all this is a test and it's perfect!!!
Just couple of days left. I have my Halka tomorrow :) weeeee fun fun fun
Skype
Back to the whole Skype thing again. Whyyyyyy don't I just meet someone closer to where I live? People actually ask me this all the time. I guess that's not difficult enough I guess? It can't be too easy?! I like it but I hate it at the same time. To be able to touch someone, smell someone and feel someone. I do LOVE Skype cuz I can both hear and see the person... And
It's a lot better than Facebook or Whatsapp anyway. Long live Skype and Americans... Haha peace out! Goodnight
Mani fucking pura...
Time flyes faster than you think.
It's barely 2 weeks left of my time here in Sweden.
And I'm lucky, cuz the weather is getting shittier and shittier now.
I can't wait to get back to Thailand.
And to see Tim. I miss him a lot when I'm not able to talk to him.
I'm home in my kitchen.
I have decided to have 3 (THREE) days off from Facebook.
Wish my luck. It's already starting to be a pain in my ass hahaha...
It's good for me. It's a tapas. I have to make it.
So, that's why I'm writing here instead.
I need to get my words out.
Many thoughts have been circulating in my mind lately.
I have been "out of balance" when it comes to my yoga and meditation.
I know why and I let it be like that too.
My focus is my drivers license and I don't have much left now.
All my time (more or less) I've been spending with focusing on this.
It's like there is no other time .....
It's a fase I'm going through (my out of balance)
and I'm working a lot on the manipura chakra to get stronger.
I do know that it has 2 sides of the energy and that the type of energy isn't pure.
I had problem with my attitude many years ago.
But after a while, people started to tell me to behave etc.
I had a lot of anger that needed to come out,
but instead I pushed it away and focused to be a better person.
Which is good of course... But...
That energy was still there... just hiding a bit.
That's why I'm have attitude problems at the moment and feel like a bitch.
I have a big ego and think I'm a princess.
This is not really me.
No, this is not me at all.
Or well... It is, but it's just temporary and something I need
to work on to pure that energy to make myself stronger.
But, I need to observe it and do something about it and not let it effect my ego.
I'm very firery at the moment and I use it when I meet new people.
(not in a aggressive way)
But I want to see the fire in them.
Specially men I meet.
I want to see passion.
I want to do everything that I can't do.
I'm playing with fire.
And talking about fire.
One thing I thought would never happen was meeting Michael.
I don't know what it was, but I couldn't control anything.
My mind just went blank when I was with him.
Which was just for 2 day and 3 nights and I barely know him.
But... There was something I can't describe in words.
Feelings I guess.
I realized that I haven't had feelings (real feelings)
for a man in a long time.
I can fall in love with peoples personalities and like them a lot.
In a second!!!
But... I still feel like a little girl just thinking about it.
I don't like it, cuz I'm not a little girl.
28 years old with an old soul.
I would call myself a young woman.
And just the thought of him coming to Sweden before I leave
makes me weak and makes my heart beat faster just thinking about it.
FUCK FUCK FUCK!
Think tantra, think tantra
Peace out
Fuuuuck
For 3 days it's been bad weather.
I don't have the time to get a tan before I go back home.
Today's problem of a traveler.
I've been in a really fucking weird mood for the last 2 days too.
Very negative and angry.
Like... very angry... at everything and everyone!
I've been analyzing myself and I couldn't come up with a reason.
Maybe it's all these hormones leaving my body?
I don't know, but one thing I know is that I'm really bored.
I'm sooooo ready to go back home.
There is NOTHING for me to do here in Cancun.
Maybe it would be different if I were in the Hotel zone, but I'm not.
I'm down town. Don't even ask me where.
I did have a great time with meeting people, but that kind of ended 3 days ago.
Since then it's been raining and boring.
I'm going crazy.
Let me come home to chill the F out with my lovely roomie Jonas.
I always miss him when I'm gone.
Yes, he's mah home boy!
Peace. Love.
Over and out.
Syncronization & intuition or just the coincidence?
This one is better of in Swedish.
Sorry again for my lazyness....
Jag kan inte släppa tanken om att allt händer utav en anledning.
Jag kan inte påstå att jag är besatt av allt det här,
men jag hade en magkänsla innan jag åkte.
Och som många av er vet så litar jag alltid på min magkänsla.
Jag visste (eller ja, jag tänkte och hoppades på) att jag skulle träffa någon intressant.
Men det var egentligen inte meningen att jag skulle åka hit till Mexico nu,
inte förräns i november då kliniken inte betalade min biljett i tid osv.
Det var väldigt rörigt och väldigt i sista sekunden med allt.
Jag fick känslan utav att jag skulle stöta på någon i varje fall.
När det sen inte blev konfirmerat att jag skulle åka
så kändes det som om det inte var rätt tid.
Det var inte dags än.
Tanken slog mig att "personen" inte skulle vara där då...
Men dagen innan jag åkte mailade jag med
hon jag bor hos och hon bad mig komma dagen efter.
Det var väldigt tight med tid, men efter många om och men kom jag iväg.
Jag kände på mig att jag skulle ångrat mig annars och jag visste att något skulle stärka mig.
Det var trots allt tid ändå.
Jag vet att allt händer utav en anledning.
Även om det är till det bättre eller till det sämre,
"what doesn't kill you makes you stronger", right? ;)
Men hela den där biten med att människor börjar bli allt mer synkroniserade med varandra
och känna en sammanhörighet och som att de träffats förr blir allt vanligare och vanligare.
I alla fall de folk jag pratar med och har dessa diskutioner med.
Många har inte tänkt på det förrän man tar upp det.
Speciellt med folk som reser som inte känner sig hemma.
Jag vet om att jag är en person som är född i fel land.
Därför känner jag oftast mer synkad med andra som är ute på samma äventyr.
Men jag synkade vid första ögonkastet med denna man.
Och tyvärr kan jag inte släppa det.
Jag vet inte om jag var själv om det,
då jag inte ville börja snacka en hokus pokus
och skrämma i väg någon som jag precis har träffat....
Han berättar i alla fall att han egentligen inte skulle varit där,
utan de skulle varit i Honduras och Belize men att deras resa ändrades i sista sekunden.
Precis som min. Och vi träffades på den magiska ön istället?
Kvinnornas ö. Isla Mujeres.
Kanske var det min magkänsla som hade rätt där?
Vem vet svaret på den frågan egentligen?
Är det bara en SLUMP, eller är det en synkronisation?
Är det min karma att få smaka e bit utav kakan och sedan att någon tar den ifrån mig?
Och hela den här grejen med att vi vill samma saker i livet.
Mycket mycket mycket vi har gemensamt.
Har gjort samma saker, vill till samma ställen och har samma tänke sätt?
Det var bara absurt.
Om man inte vet vad man talar om när det kommer till ituition,
clairvoyance, third eye, mental command center etc.
Hur förklarar man för någon som inte är insatt, utan att verka ko-ko?
Jag tror det förblir hemlighet av vad folk kan göra, tänka, tro, drömma, se.
Jag vet att jag har ett starkt "tredje öga" och ser oftast saker innan det händer...
Ja, det är fakta.
Jag har många gånger inte trott på det själv.
Tills jag drog till Thailand och utvecklade min clairvoyance or intuition.
Hur jag stärkte mitt AJNA CHAKRA (tredje öga).
Men, tyck vad du vill...
Jag är kanske inte som alla andra och det är jag jävligt glad över.
Men en sak är säker. Min intuition och magkänsla litar jag ALLTID på!
ALLTID!
Och på 2 dagar tog den här mannen mig med storm.
Och det var en mening med det.
Möjligtvis för mig att öva på det där med detachment, distans och kärlek.
Efter många jag träffat,
och ska jag vara ärlig så har jag träffat en del sen jag blev singel igen.
Men aldrig känt det där lilla extra.
Här fick jag en fet käft smäll av en massa extra.
Kan väl inte säga att jag är kär, då det tar tid för mig.
Men helt klart en person som jag hade velat spendera mycket tid tillsammans med.
Och utan tvekan hade kunnat bli kär i.
Nä, nu ska jag sluta flumma och glo någon serie eller något
Over and out.
What to do in Cancun
So, I wonder if I'll ever going to see this guy again...
I got so attracted to him just for his brain.
Yes, there you have it. A smart guy attracts me. A lot.
And from one thing to another,
I realized that I'm not so into working in Cancun.
I'll prefer Isla Mujeres or at least a smaller place with less traffic
and people that are pissed off at the "gringos".
(American tourists)
No, give me that hippie island and I'll stay there for ever. And ever.
I was in the hotel zone in Cancun today.
One word: CRAZY!
All the big ass resorts and shit... and rude...
There is nothing to do there except from partying or go to a beach.
Gahhh....
I will start in Thailand and I'll see where I end up.
I want to do Yoga and give massage always :)
Makes me happy!
And do Tantra. That's what I need.
Gahhh.... Hormones talking.
xoxo over and out. peeeeace
Cancun, Mexico
A short little update.
I'm at the Copenhagen airport waiting for my gate to open.
I've been here since 05.30 this morning.
I arrive and my ticket have been canceled. (?!?!?)
I went to the Novia ticket office for help and they have just canceled
the ticket since it was bought late last night.
The clinic that I'm in contact with, I guess they have a problem with their credit card?!
Anyway... I had to buy the ticket with my own money and get it back when I arrive.
So, they changed the route for me.
I fly from Copenhagen - London
London - Miami
Miami - Cancun.
It's going to be a long flight and I need my rest.
I've slept 3-4 hours tonight and I'm already exausted.
Since my flight didn't board 7.35, I have to wait until 10.45 instead.
So, you can guess what I've been doing....?
I've been walking around in all gates, just being reminded that I don't miss my old job at the airport.
I sure did have a great time when I worked there with many co-workers,
but in general... I'm pleased to be out of there!
Now it's time to board and soon I'll have some sun :D
Mexico here we come!
See you in 3 weeks Sweden
Picture update...
So this is my vegetable / coconut milk stew mix.
Pure awesomeness!
I got myself a new tattoo as well...
My friend Sanaa, that normally lives in Barcelona is home during summer just like me.
And she is an awesome tattoo artist.
So... I'll say... Pure awesomeness again! :D
And... the next day when it was fresh made... I woke up and I saw this...
NOT SO AWESOME for my white sheets in my bed :(
But...I got new sandals...
More awesomeness... I really like that word haha!
Swenglish update
Hello...
I will take this one in Swedish, only because of my lazyness.
Det där med utveckling.
Jag går med säkra steg framåt, men med små baby steg.
Går jag för fort framåt så faller jag plötsligt och kommer några steg bakåt igen.
Man måste ju lära sig utav sina misstag.
Jag är en person som tar en sak i taget.
Eller ja... jag är oftast inte det, men jag har lärt mig att jag MÅSTE vara den personen.
Gör jag flera saker i taget så är det oftast att ingenting blir gjort eller att det blir total kaos
i mitt huvud och jag glömmer bort allt eller skiter i det.
Ja, jag tror att det kan bero på min ADD.
Jobbigaste är att läsa.
Jag verkligen älskar att läsa när jag väl kommit in i det,
men innan jag väl kommer in i det så har min koncentration
flygit bort någon annanstans och jag är lost eller rastlös.
Så, det krävs mkt arbete för att få mig att sitta still och verkligen göra det.
Mitt fokus under augusti månad är ENBART att jag ska ta mitt körkort, och inget annat.
Det är en massa plugg. Jag har ALDRIG pluggat så mkt som jag gjort under detta året.
Inte sen gymnasiet iaf... haha, och ja, vi vet ju att i gymnasiet var jag inte en ängel heller.
Men kul hade jag och jag ångrar inte att jag levde loppan, för annars hade jag nog inte varit där jag är i dag.
Men att utbilda sig till Yoga lärare och engelsk lärare och dessutom ta en
Tantra kurs under loppet av 6 månader, och nu körkort.
Ja det e strongt av mig.
Jag känner på mig att detta året är MITT ÅR!
Jag åker till Mexico i nästa vecka och kommer ta med mina körkorts böcker och min Yoga matta.
Kommer till att ha mitt lugn där och finna min ro. Ensamheten.
Hur jobbigt det än kan vara ibland så är ensamheten underbar.
Jag kan lägga allt mitt fokus på mig själv och jag har ingen att anpassa mig efter.
Tolka mig inte fel, jag ÄLSKAR mina vänner. Nästan lite för mycket ibland.
Därför trivs jag så underbart utomlands också,
då jag inte är stressad på samma sätt som här hemma.
Mitt fokus är MIG SJÄLV, och allt annat kommer i andra hand.
Jag vet inte om jag var smart eller dum när jag gick med i Vemma.
Men i vilket fall som helst så får jag väl lära mig utav mina misstag där med.
Ja, det var av en slump (alltid en mening med slumpen)
så blev jag kontaktad av en gammal jobb coach i från Arbetsförmedlingen.
Faktiskt den enda jag någonsin klickat med på AMS (sorgligt men sant).
Han presenterade Vemma för mig och med tanke på att man är i hälso branschen
så hoppade jag givetvis på denna underbart bra dryck.
Men... Jag känner att jag inte har tiden till det.
Mitt schema är FULLT tills innan jag drar tillbaka till Thailand i oktober
och jag velade fram och tillbaka om jag skulle göra det....
Jag kände bara att jag blev allt mer stressad då jag var tvungen att hitta 3 pers
som går med för att få mina produkter gratis.
Det är inga problem att hitta det, men har man inte tiden till att jaga folk och gå på presentationer
och att jag ska åka i väg igen kändes det som om jag byggde min egen grav av stress.
Men, all props till Claudiu - UNDERBAR kille.
Jag gillar MÄN där det e lite krut i, finns fåtal av dom kvar i Sverige kan jag tycka.
Så tummen upp för honom!
Nu sitter jag här med mina körkortsböcker och det kliar i fingrarna bara av att jag tittar på dom.
Jag har laddat ner en körkorts app på mobilen, så kan öva lite där när jag har tråkigt med frågor etc.
Men det är dags nu!!!
I morgon bär det av till Thailänska ambassaden med Marcello.
Dags att skaffa visum. Jag vill ha allting fixat NU!
Boende 2 dagar är avklarat i Bangkok (samma som sist)
Sen har jag 1 månads hyra betald på Koh Phangan i ett jätte fint hus/bungalow
Där kommer jag vara bosatt ett tag framöver då jag utvecklar min massage.
Thai Yoga massage blir det till en början och sedan får vi se vad som händer.
Men jobba är ett måste.
Nu måste jag plugga!
SAAAAR VI!!!
Puss på er
Home sweet home!
I know it's been a while since I wrote.
Like always. Sorry for that.
I'm home in cold ass Sweden again.
It suppose to be summer here, but I'm not sure about that...
I arrived on Midsummer eve, traveling for 2 days straight almost.
A stop over in Dubai for couple of hours... Had to say Hi to Deana (David's ex).
Midsummer, wasn't really planned for me and I didn't have so much energy
to party with the rest of the people so I went home to my steph father Leif
with my siblings and mother and had a BBQ.
After that I went home.
Jonas was working and I spent the rest of the night together with Jojje and Marcello.
The past days since I came home have just been unpacking,
sorting out all my stuff etc.
Have been trying out slackline for 2 days. Very fun!
Good for core and balance.
Jonas is going to buy one and we will have one in our yard!
He is also really hooked on this thing...
The reason why I write today is because I somehow "bump into" Americans all the time.
I know I have a thing for Americans... I don't know why.
And somehow mostly Californians.
For a really really long time I had the feeling that something is calling me in Cali.
I don't know what it is but I just have the need to go there...
Today it happened again.
I had my first work day. At Kastrup, Copenhagen Airport.
What my job is, is to pick up costumers from the airport
with a ABSOLUT sign from ABSOLUT VODKA.
Give them their train tickets,
call a cab that will pick them up and make sure they'll get on the train!
And... what happens... ?
3 of the 11 people are Americans but all of them lives in Amsterdam.
One New Yorker and 2 Californians...
CALIFORNIA IS HUNTING ME!
If I could go there right now, I would...
And I know I will go there soon.
Who knows, maybe Mr. Right is there?
Or maybe someone else... Who knows what my plans are there?
I just know that I need to go...
INTUITION = STRONG!
Brain crash
This whole Yoga and meditation is doing good for me.
Or should I say "my brain"?
I went to Maha yesterday for a follow up treatment.
I forgot the first time but she told me to come back later the same day.
*PUH* Lucky me.
We talked a lot about the problems I had.
On my first meeting during my TTC, my problem was a different thing.
Which healed and never had problems with it since I took the remedy.
*knock on wood*
She asked me back then if I had a head injury in my life.
I said no.... Then I stopped...
Wait a minute. I did have a head injury.
A concussion at 2005 when I fell from my bike.
I forgot about that.
(Maybe because my memory have been a bit fucked up since then?)
So... The problem during my TTC and STILL, is my headaches and migrains.
I started talking about this when Maha asks me if I get stressed
over tests or somthing that I have to prove?
YES YES YES!
And it's been a lot of that lately.
It makes sence to me now,
but I would never think about how it could be related.
My brain works slower (still good) but it has to work 2 times more than a normal brain.
So, that's why I get tired and exausted when it comes to learning.
And everything because of a concussion.
I still need and want to keep my brain "active" and moving...
So, just talking and writing in english for me, is a good thing to do.
It takes a bit of effort from time to time,
but it's going better and better for each day.
I do have a problem when I don't understand.
It's like my brain don't want to work with me.
I can start crying beacause of that. Seriously.
And it can be such small and simple things,
that you might laugh at afterwards.
But hey... It's a brain damage, what can I do?
Maha told me that it can takes 20 years for a brain to recover fully.
Somthing is not right to 100 % she said.
I always knew that I was special hahaha...
She will give me a remedy today and she said that I might not have any problem
with my head again. Hopefully, hopefully!
Back to normal? ;)
